Smut, Smut, Smut

Award sites?

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 17:59:04 GMT

*waves* Hey flist! Hope everyone is well.

I was wondering if anyone knows of any good award sites for B/A fanfiction. All the ones I use to visit are closed *cries*

Can anyone help me?

NEW Fic:Tomorrow always comes, together forever

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 03:46:40 GMT

Title: Tomorrow always comes. Together forever
Author: Leanne
Feedback: Yes please, I can’t get better if I don’t know what you think
about it.
Timeline: Six years after “Post Not Fade Away”
Pairing: B/A
Rating: Pg 13
Word Count:1862
Summary: It takes month’s maybe years to heal from a tragedy, but it
only takes a minute for your life to change.
Status: Complete
Spoilers: None. Sets off after the scene in the alley of Angel Season 5
An: I wasn’t sure of the title, if someone else has one like this. I’m
sorry! Let me know. To Christine aka Chrissnoop for being a wonderful
friend and all her wonderful help, in discussing what I should do or
change in my stories when I need help. Thanks hun, I’m so honoured to know
you!! Thanks to Kyria(moire2) for looking this over, and giving me her
opinions.

Well this is the first story in a long time that is complete. I swear
every time I write something, I never get to finish it… cause so many
things are going through my head. I’d really appreciate any feedback and
or constructive criticism. My muse has been vacant lately, and this is
the first thing ‘my muse’ has written in a while. So please feel free
to comment. Any and all comments will be greatly appreciated.
.

http://reborndesires.proboards107.com/index.cgi?action=display&board=leanne&thread=1168825623&page=1

PS2 help

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 21:50:11 GMT

Hey everyone, I need some help.

i downloaded Adobe PS2, for making graphics, but all I see here is making calenders, cards and slideshows, is there a specific one I need to download?

Beverley Hills 90210

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 18:03:48 GMT

*Squee*

Beverley Hills 90210 is doing reruns and I finally get them. Weeeeeeeee!! I use to love this show and the hotness of Dylan and Brandon, *sigh*

I can't wait to watch them over and over again!! God, I loved Brenda and Dylan together they were such a great couple!!

Okay off to go watch Day's of our Lives now. *shakeshead* this show is getting crazier and crazier everytime I watch it!!Tehe....

I have 5 days off and I'm relaxing all weekend! yay!!

Pick your birthday month and read it, then repost with whatever you are...

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 17:55:58 GMT

Pick your birthday month and read it, then repost with whatever you are...

JANUARY=PIMP
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the center. Inner and physical
beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does
not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them MFE.

FEBRUARY=THUG
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.
Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon.
Has more than one best friend.
Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest
and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves
aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends
but rarely shows it. #####. Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.Like somebody with a OCTOBER brithday. Repost this in 5 min. and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match

MARCH=GORGEOUS
Drop dead gorgeous!!!Attractive personality.Very! sexy.Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic.Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others * wink wink*. Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of NE of these months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.likes to keep theyre crushes kinda secret.pretty much flawless If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your
new love in 8 days.

APRIL=SEXY
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.
Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and
sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does
work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.
Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good
memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look
for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or
make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and
others. Understanding. Fun to be around.
Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive.
Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and
travelling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you
repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye
will introduce themselves and you will realize at
you are very much alike in the next 2 days.

MAY=LOVER
Hella sexy, loves sex n makin luv, tends to be SOOOOO hott!!Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends
to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself.
Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and
caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have
many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional.
Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates
oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.
Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can
understand.
if you do not repost this in the next 5
mins. someone very close to you will become mad
at you in the next 8 days.

JUNE = LUST
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you.
You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily
consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.
spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully. Caring and
loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties
in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods
about the past and the old friends. Waits for
friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive
unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5
mins and your reputation will boost someway in
the next 12 days

JULY=FLIRT
You've got the best personality and are an
absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make
new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt
and more than likely have a very attractive
partner, a wicked hottie. Like somebody with an
OCTOBER brithday. It is also more likely than that you have a massiverecord collection. When it
comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one day
become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck,
you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you
will meet someone that may possibly become
one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5
minutes.

AUGUST=ATTITUDE
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on
attention. self control. kind hearted. self
confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful.
easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every
thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.
loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates
not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be
loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".
longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or
restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.
always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming"
or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.
independent. strong willed. a fighter. repost in 5
mins and you will meet the love of your life
sometime next month.

SEPTEMBER=SMART
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the centre. Great in bed.Inner
and physical beauty. Doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices.
Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others.
It is all about love and fairness.Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. ##### and does fullfill.
Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions.
Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them all. If you repost this in the
next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone
you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.

OCTOBER=HOTTIE

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and
dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun.
Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards
your inner and outer beauty and independent
personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional
and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people
easily and very social in a group. Fearless and
independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a
crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever
begin a relationship with someone from this month,
hold on to them because their one of a kind. repost
in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming
up sometime this month.

NOVEMBER=SWEETIE

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and
highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.
Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex.
Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to
dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike
being at home. Restless. having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited. If you repost this in the
next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone
you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.

DECEMBER=BEAUTY
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and
highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.
Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex.
Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to
dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike
being at home. Restless. having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited.

If you repost this in the
next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone
you do not speak to much in along time

My 2006 B/A fics

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 20:56:11 GMT

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

What a long and hard year it was for me. I've struggled lots in my writing and I've developed in it as well, I think....except for my WIP's that are slowing building up and not getting finished *sigh*. Oh well one day they will be... here is what I have written for 2006.

Title: Her
Author: Leanne
Characters/Pairings: Mentions of Buffy and Angel
Rating: R- I’ll just say R, to be safe.
Disclaimer: It’s not mine, we already know that!
Summary: Written for btvsats_20.
Prompt: What’s under your mattress/pillow? Why?

Title: Just Like a Pill
Author: Leanne
Feedback: Yes please it helps me write better.
Timeline: Season Six of Btvs, Season Four Ats
Summary: When the AI team brings out Angelus to defeat the beast. He doesn’t stay in LA; he heads to Sunnydale to see a certain slayer…His slayer
Characters: Buffy, Angelus, Spike, others.
Rating: R…Some sexual intuitions
Author’s notes: Maddy gave me three words that I had to use throughout this story. The Three words are: Blinding, Pill. Crumbs

What If Tomorrow Never Comes
Author: Leanne
Summary: Rewrite of Angel Season five. This will be written in parts. The story starts off Canon. This first chapter will be based on the missing scenes that should of happened after Buffy killed the first...Buffy is living in Rome. Angel goes to see her, Spike arrives in LA and Nina goes missing
Category: Angel: The Series > AtS Season Five
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Other
Rating: NC17 - Genres: Adventure, Drama, Romance, Crossover - Warnings: Violence, Strong Sexual Content, Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Chapters: 1 -
Word Count: 4772
Published: 01/25/06
Author's Notes: Angel has his soul and still can't have sex with Buffy, but that doesn't mean other things can't happen.

And then there was you
by Lea
Summary: My intake on Not fade away, a fluffy yet tense journey on two lost warriors
Category: Angel: The Series > AtS - Season Five - Characters: Angel, Buffy, Connor, Dawn, Faith, Giles, Gunn, Lindsey, Lorne, Spike, Wesley, Willow, Xander, Other
Rating: R
Genres: Adventure, Drama, Comedy, General, Romance, Crossover, Angst - Warnings: Violence, Strong Sexual Content, Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Chapters: 2
Word Count: 5032
Completed: No

This one well, I'm still writing and I've been writing it since 2003....It's a looooong-heartrenching- epic.

Title:Lost Souls
Author:Leanne
Email: leapg2003@yahoo.ca
Summary: When Buffy wins the battle against the First, she finally realizes what her destiny is, but for her to fullfill her dream, she has to take a journey into a place that will change her life and her exsistence forever!
Category: Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Timeline: BTVS Post Chosen then will lead to - Future -AU
Characters: Angel, Anya, Buffy, Connor, Cordelia, Darla, Dawn, Doyle, Drusilla, Faith, Fred, Giles, Gunn, Jenny, Lilah, Lindsey, Lorne, Oz, Spike, Wesley, Willow, Xander, Angelus, Other
Rating: NC17
Genres: Adventure, Drama, Romance, Angst
Warnings: Violence, Strong Sexual Content, Adult Language, Sexual Situations, Character Death
Chapters: 45
Word Count: 124,493
Published: 10/25/03
Updated: 11/07/06
Completed: No

I have added this back

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 18:27:17 GMT

Well, I decided to add this journal back, since I lost alot of stuff after deleting this, just wanted to make sure, there are people still on my friendslist.

Comment if you are, please!!

Lea

Hey

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 23:54:51 GMT

Here is my new LJ for anyone who wants to still speak to me out of the B/A fandom. It will just be my ramblings of life, so that's about it. I hope you come join me.

little_leanne !

Best Wishes

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 08:42:54 GMT

Well. I am posting this because It's sad to say I am leaving for good this time. The fandom...that is.

My life well isn't the greatest right now. I am looking at being seperated with my boyfriend of 8 years and there are way to many things happening, things that I really need to deal with and well being on here doesn't get me away from shit or things I am trying to get away from, because it always seems there is something else as well that I have to deal with here, and it's too much and it's just not worth it.

I use to enjoy myself here, I had fun talking to everyone, getting to know everyone, and it's been a blast, I met some incredible people I will never forget but the time has come for me to say goodbye.

I will be deleting everything I have done, and taking all my sites off. If someone wants to take over them, leave me an email.

I hope everyone has a great, fantastic life. Full of love and happiness and joy and I wish you all the best in the world.

Wow, I'm actually crying as I write this, why, well there is so many people to thank that I have met and talked online (messenger) and who have become *great* friends of mine.

Zo, Bre, Cathy, Suzie, Christine, Sobad, Terra, Sardenny, Chloe, Angela, Tygerlily, Marchelle, Ginger, Maz, Edel, Jasmine, Kristin, Robyn, Briony, Amy, Akay, Lynn, Jemma, Daniele,Kristi, Linds,Brenda, Laurie.

You ladies have made me one of the happiest girls, you have [i]changed[/i] my life with your friendship, your talents and your remarkable personalities. You will never know how much you mean to me and how you have touched my life.
It was great meeting you and I can't wait to talk to you more out of the fandom. Keep up all your amazing work and I hope that you get everything you wished for!

As for everyone who has spoken to me on a somewhat regular basis. I thank you for ever having faith in me. You have made me believe that I can accomplish anything. I thank you for that and I also want to say that you have made me a happy girl just getting to know you all! It was fun and I will miss you all.

Everyone in the fandom, you all have gave me so much inspiration whether it was a story you wrote or something that had to do with B/A, or feedback from a fic, I adore everything you have done and it was great getting to read everything you had to say.

I wish you all the luck and it was great getting to know all of you more.
Best wishes to all of you.

XOXOXOXOXO
Lea

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 17:24:43 GMT

*Waves*

Hey all, hope everyone is well. I have made some new art, thought I would share, hope you all enjoy it.

Lost Souls: Book One Domination

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 08:46:37 GMT

Well the time has come...I am on Chapter 49 and still writing like a busy bee. I know I have only posted till chapter 45 but I am going to leave you all in suspense until its finished now. I have gone back and revised this.*sighs* what the hell was I thinking two years ago when I started this, lol. Well here it is the first part of my revisions. Here's 1-5...I'm sleepy I'll post the rest on Tues.

Feedback is always welcomed. *g*

Lost Souls

Summary: When Buffy wins the battle against the First, she finally realizes what her destiny is, but for her to fulfill her dream, she has to take a journey into a place that will change her life and her existence forever!
Category: Buffy The Vampire Slayer : BTVS - Future

Characters: Angel, Anya, Buffy, Connor, Cordelia, Darla, Dawn, Doyle, Drusilla, Faith, Fred, Giles, Gunn, Jenny, Lilah, Lindsey, Lorne, Oz, Spike, Wesley, Willow, Xander, Angelus, Other
Rating: NC17

Genres: Adventure, Drama, Romance, Angst

Warnings: Violence, Strong Sexual Content, Adult Language, Sexual Situations, Character Death

Word Count: 1205,294

Published: 04/25/2003

Updated: 07/25/2005

Completed: No

Author's Notes: . Three Characters are mine. Ariel, Jacob, and Natasha .This Story is Dedicated to Sobad and Marchelle, who have been great readers and Friends, The first time I talked to you guy’s you told me that I would be a great author one day, and that my writing show’s you depths of emotions that pull you in, and I would like to say thank you to you guys, If it wasn’t for your kind words that day and after, I don’t know where I would be today, You guys are the best and I will never forget you.

I would also like to thank everyone who has sent me feedback through the long haul from the very beginning... I am just surprised how this fic has developed. I am almost finished. 5 more chapters and it's done. Phew, 50 chapters is a lot, lol. Thanks all of you for making me continue this. Love ya all... So Thank you Amy, Sobad, Marchelle, Ruth, Christine, Lana, Angela, Calista, Nicole, Edel, Lynn, Kendra, Kristi, Kate, Akay, Maz. Jasmine, Vamp hottie, Cathy, Laura, Scorpion Queen, Lou, Evelyn, Tiffany, Linds, Brenda, SW, Terrie, Janette, Alicia, Tara ,Peggy, Suzie, Terra, Laurie, Kassy, Zo, Lynn, Robyn, Debbie, Daniele, Terra, Ginger, Terilyn, AngelicAngel,cjsplace, Jemma, Nothingpa, Caroline, Tani, Sardenny, Tommy14, Kristina…If I forgot some…I’m sorry. Thank you again for having faith in my writing abilities.

Thank you to Zo for taking over the beta spot and going over every chapter with me. Thanks hun, I appreciate it.

Lost Souls

Prologue: A New Beginning

(Flashback)

“What was the highlight of our relationship— when you broke up with me or when I killed you? I’m well aware of my stellar history with guys and no, I don’t see fat grandchildren in the offing with Spike. But I don’t think that really matters right now. You know, in the midst of all this insanity, a couple of things are actually starting to make sense. And the guy thing… (sighs) I always feared there was something wrong with me. You know, because I couldn’t make it work. But maybe I’m not supposed to.” She whispered.

“Because you’re the Slayer.”

“Because… okay. I’m cookie dough. I’m not done baking. I’m not finished becoming whoever the hell it is I’m going to turn out to be. I make it through this and the next thing and the next thing and maybe one day I turn around and realize I’m ready. I’m cookies. And then, you know, if I want someone to eat m—or enjoy warm, delicious cookie-me, then that’s fine. That’ll be then. When I’m done.”

(Flashback)

***

Angel stared outside; the encounter with Buffy still lingered in his mind. He could smell the sunrise coming. It had been almost four hours since he left Sunneydale. He growled angrily; he couldn’t believe she had sent him away for Spike, of all people! She even slept with him. He growled again punching a hole through the wall in his room. Hissing in pain, he stumbled to the window and gazed toward the city.

“Angel are you alright?” Fred asked.

He was startled out his thoughts by Fred’s timid voice and he spun around quickly grabbing his jacket, “Yeah I got to get out of here.”

He tried to brush pass her but she grabbed his arm, “She’ll be okay, I know it.”

He heard the sympathy in her voice and saw the pity in her eyes and he tried to smile but he couldn’t. He wasn’t feeling compassionate at the moment. Thoughts of Buffy sleeping with Spike controlled every other emotion and Fred gazing at him with those puppy dog eyes was not helping.

He shook her hand off and spoke gruffly, “Call if you need me.”, Fred watched him leave the

concern she felt for her friend evident on her face.

As he stepped outside he took an unnecessary breath in an attempt to calm himself. ‘I need a good fight’ he thought glancing up to the full moon he turned right and headed to the cemetery with hopes in finding one.

***

Buffy and the Scooby Gang drove the streets of LA in search for the hotel Angel was living in. She shivered slightly she could feel him…he was close. She was nervous to see him but also very excited, placing her hand on Giles shoulder, she sighed loudly,

“Giles, stop let me out, I’ll meet you over there.”

He nodded and stopped the bus. He opened the door and watched her run toward the cemetery. She knew Giles would be angry and hurt she could feel it, but she didn’t care, all she wanted to do was see Angel.

***

“ Fuck! God dammit!” Angel snarled slamming his fist through the tombstone, breaking the crypt smashing it to pieces, Buffy watched him silently.

“I never thought you were that angry, Want to talk about it?”

He spun around panting heavily, seeing her standing there alive, he rushed toward her and began to examine her closely. All thoughts of hurting someone rapidly disappeared as his concern for her took over.

She smiled, he always was the only person who knew exactly what she was thinking, felt exactly the same way she did.

“You’re hurt!” He exclaimed, brushing his fingertips gently over her wounds,” You need bandages.”

She smiled slightly, brushing a hand through her knotted hair. “I’m fine. Heal fast. Are you?” Buffy asked sitting down in the grass, her mossy eyes staring at him intensely. She reached for him and grabbed his hand pulling him down and cupping his cheek with her hand.

“Angel!” She breathed and his heart sank. How was it that after so long she could still make him weak at the knees. Inwardly he moaned, as that old feeling wanting what he could not have returned….full force.

***

“What happened is that the *First* is dead.” She sighed, “The amulet you gave me worked.”

Angel watched her emotions flicker through her eyes, “And Spike?” Angel immediately wished that he hadn’t of asked.

She lowered her head staring at the ground. “He saved us, sacrificed himself for me.” She sighed heavily before looking back at him.

“Everyone else is alive, hurt but alive.” She stared at him searching his face for any reaction. Pain sorrow and confusion crossed his features,

“We should go,” he looked up at the sky, which was beginning to lighten with a heavy heart, “And you need rest and food.” Angel grabbed her hand pulling her up.

They walked in silence toward the hotel. Finally, after about a half an hour they reached their destination; Buffy stopped in her tracks as her ever-widening eyes took in the enormous building that stood before her.

“Wow, huge.” Angel grinned at her widely as he guided her inside.

Fred, seeing the brooding vampire return, rushed towards him,” Buffy,” She said breathlessly, “She went to go….O…Ooh!” Buffy suddenly appeared standing beside Angel. “Oh…hi! I’m Fred, nice to meet you Buffy.”

Buffy smiled at the slightly geeky woman in front of her. She reminded her so much like of a younger Willow before everything had changed. “Hello it’s nice to meet you too.”

Angel left the living room, leaving Buffy with Fred and entered the lobby. “Is everyone ok? I can order pizza and there are lots of rooms, Lorne will show you where to go,”

He stared through the small opening at Buffy then to the huge group that stood before him, slightly awed. “Slayers?”

Buffy nodded, “Yeah, uh sorry, we can find somewhere else to go,”

Angel watched her seductively and he smiled she was so beautiful, so grown up and mature. He laughed as she stared at him impatiently.

“Angel?”

He looked at her blankly before snapping out of his daze, “Oh no, please, you’re all welcome.” Walking over to her, he grabbed her hand. The second their hands touched, they were rewarded with a warm sensation that they both had not felt in a while.

“You’re definitely welcome to stay,” before he added, “and I would like you to.”

She smiled and he turned his attention toward the group in the room. “Is everyone okay?” Angel asked. They all nodded, gathering their things and followed Lorne upstairs.

Dawn shrieked and jumped into Angel’s arms making him laugh loudly. “Thank you Angel!” She kissed him and ran upstairs.

Buffy smiled as he laughed. Angel looked up at her, to see her eyes glimmering with tears. They stood there staring at each other longingly and nervously at the same time before Buffy spoke.

“Do you have your own room?” she asked breathlessly.

Angel stood stone still…Was she asking to see my room? He gulped.

Buffy seemingly reading his thoughts giggled and turned away to look for the kitchen, “You might want to lay claim to it before anyone else does.”

While Buffy looked for the kitchen to make some tea, Angel practically sprinted to his room making sure that no one took it. As she waited for the water to boil, Buffy walked around looking at his belongings and pictures. Everything was so expensive and extravagant, she giggled, so like Angel. Hearing the kettle whistle she returned to the kitchen and poured her tea, then headed upstairs.

She stood nervously outside his door talking deep calming breaths. She didn’t know why she went to his room, but she did. It was as if she was drawn to it. When her heart finally slowed down a little, she lifted her hand and knocked.

“Hold on,” Angel called out as he got up, put on his pants and opened the door to see Buffy on the other side.

“Hi, um, want some tea?” She asked.

He noticed her hands were trembling and he smiled reassuringly at her.

“Thanks, come in, he said, holding the door open for her.

As she walked by, she couldn’t help but stare at his hard, muscular chest. She swallowed hard, She had forgotten just how well built he was, and seeing him now reminded her of how much she had missed him. Closing the door Angel took the tray from her and put it on the night table, then handed her a cup.

Buffy sat down on the edge of the bed, staring at his room. It was huge and bright. He had red satin sheets and silk covers. She brushed her hand over the sheets and moaned softly. Angel hearing her moan ignored the tea that he was about to pour and gave in to the urge he had since seeing her in the graveyard. He sat down on the bed and grabbed her crushing his lips to hers; waiting for the invitation. Buffy parted her lips, moaning at his touch and the way his cool tongue slid against her teeth, she kissed him back hungrily, arching herself closer to him. Tears slid down her cheeks and kissed her more. Breaking the kiss he looked down at her passionately brushing the hair from her face. He began to whisper soothing words into her ear as he rubbed her back. “Buffy, baby its okay. You’re okay, love.” Angel brushed away her tears and kissed her forehead softly.

“Is this about Spike?” he asked tentatively.

She glared at him, pushing him off her roughly, getting off the bed. “God…Angel! Can’t we just talk without you…” she paused and Angel grabbed her arm pulling her back on to the bed. Lying down he pulled her up until she lay next to him. She was close to him and he wrapped his arms around her, covering them with the blanket he held onto her tightly.

“I’m sorry beloved could you tell me what’s wrong?” Buffy turned to face him, tears welding up and her eyes,” I didn’t love him. He told me he loved me before he died, but I don’t, I never did and he knew that.” tears spilled out of her eyes, his dark gaze growing more intense.’

“He sacrificed himself for me and I lied to him.”

Angel looked closely at her frowning. “You were telling him what he wanted to hear. He knows you cared about him.” She sighed as she laid her head on the pillow inches away from him.

Buffy could smell his hunger and need for her and it aroused her. She snuggled closer not taking her eyes off him.

“I’m sorry for sending you away and for letting you find out that way. God, I didn’t mean for it to even start.” She watched as his eyes softened to her and she groaned.

“I’m not blaming you for anything Buffy and I don’t think of you any different. We’ve all done things we regret.” He sighed, rubbing his forehead. She watched him as his features changed slightly in the moonlight.

“Was she beautiful?”

Angel looked at her confused.” Who?”

She sighed sitting up and resting her head on the headboard and reaching for her tea; she sipped it slowly.

“Who made you happy? Was it Cordelia? That Fred girl?”

Angel swallowed hard averting her gaze and staring past her to the window.

“It was Cordelia right? Because Willow said she felt some vibes between you two.”

Angel moved his body laying himself on top of her,” It wasn’t happiness Buffy it was magic. There was no love and no sex.” He watched her facial expression change and he could see the love in her eyes.

“Do you really think I loved someone else? God Buffy, I didn’t leave you because I didn’t love you. I left so you could have a normal life. I admit I’m not a saint, I’m a man and I have needs but that doesn’t mean I would just take the first woman I saw.” He angrily sat up and started to get out of bed but she grabbed his arm holding him there.

“Please don’t go. I don’t want to fight.” Tears formed in her mossy green eyes again, she turned and sighed, and he sat down and grabbed her, sitting her in his lap.

“Giles said you were thinking of seeing Europe. If you decide not to go, I would like to get to know you again. We have a lot to talk about and a lot to tell each other and I want you to stay, but I would understand if you left. Think about it okay?” He laid her down pulling the covers over her. A smile formed her face and she cupped his cheeks, her fingers brushing lightly over his cool skin.

“Can I sleep on it?” She asked.

He nodded kissing her forehead “Goodnight Beloved,” He whispered standing up.

“Good night, Angel.” He headed to the door turning off the lights.

“Angel,” she whispered, he turned, looking towards her.

“I never stopped, not once, you know that right?” She did not say it, she didn’t need too because he knew what she meant.

“I know love. Sleep we will talk tomorrow.” As he whispered his last word, her eyes shut and she fell fast asleep, Angel took in her beauty once more before heading out of the room, down to the lobby.

Chapter 1 “A second chance”

***

It was morning as usual for the LA gang. Angel sat at his desk looking through his paper work, Lorne had taken the slayers to the entertainment room letting them explore. Fred, Gunn and Wesley sat at the table in the lunchroom looking over their notes.

"So that's Buffy, she seems very sad…but nice," Fred commented, sipping her coffee. Wes smiled looking towards her.

"She been the slayer for seven years now and she is finished. I don't think she knows what to do."

Fred frowned looking towards Angel’s office and back to them, "Why doesn't she stay and help? I know Angel would want it."

Wesley gave her a sad smile, placing his hand on her arm.

***

Buffy opened her eyes she looked to the clock it was ten am. She got up, grabbing her clothes and heading for the bathroom. The shower was great, she felt great. It had been a long time since she had slept that well. She remembered last night, Angel laying on her; she got aroused just thinking about it! She pictured him in there with her, kissing him, making love to him. The slayer groaned and stepped out of the shower reaching for the chenille towel and drying her self off.

God she wanted him, wanted him forever but she was scared that it would happen again, him leaving her. Buffy dressed and headed through the on suite into the main building. Buffy watched as the many humans and demons scurried around the office, she smiled as her gaze caught Angel.

"I don't care what you two weasels do; get that guy to find a new lawyer. We will not be dealing with him any more. I will not associate myself with a baby eater."

"But Mr- Angel, he is one of your biggest clients; he's been with us a long time.”

Angel growled and bared his fangs. “ I don't care deal with it,"

Buffy watched Angel, a smile forming her lips, he had changed so much and god he was cute when he was angry, she leaned against the door and watched him silently.

Angel felt a tingling in the pit of his stomach and knew exactly what it was. God, he had missed that feeling. The vampire looked up slowly and smiled at her, savouring the image.

"Morning," she greeted, moving graciously across the room swaying her hips, he could feel himself getting hard as she came closer… she was so beautiful, such a goddess.

"Morning, sleep well?" He grinned pouring a coffee and handing it to her, after pouring himself a cup he reached over opening the blinds. As the sunlight slipped in almost hitting Angel,

The slayer gasped loudly, "Angel, get out of the …" she watched as the sun hit his face and he didn’t explode, she looked at him confused.

"Tampered glass!”

Her mouth curved into an ooh shape, “Neat,”

“Hungry?” Angel asked, the slayer nodded, and he grabbed her hand leading her to a kitchen with a table. She sat down smiling as he made her breakfast.

"Wow, you have a lot of people here working for you," she noted, watching them rush around franticly.

"Yeah, pretty intense, huh, People working for me," Angel said grinning slightly at her.

She laughed, "Just a little strange."

"Boss," Harmony said, flouncing into the room. "Your ten o’ clock is here”, she glanced at Buffy and raised a neatly plucked eyebrow, "Buffy,"

"Harmony?" Buffy looked at Angel and then back to the blond vampire.

"She's my secretary," Angel explained, "Thank you Harmony, you can leave now,"

Harmony grunted irritably, "Always shooed away for the Slayer."

Buffy giggled again as he handed her the food, her lips puckering up.

"What?" he asked, as she grabbed her toast taking a bite.

"We do need to talk, don't we?" she whispered and he looked at her shyly and sat beside her.

"We do," he agreed.

She laid her hand on his and entwined her fingers with him, "I know I need to find myself but I would like to get to know you again, this you, the happy bright Angel." He nodded and squeezed her hand.

"So you’re staying?" He chirped and she averted her eyes to the floor then to the window.

"For now, if you let me" He frowned and stood up pacing the room.

"So you will be leaving sometime?"

"I don't know Angel; I guess that's up to us. I kind of do need a vacation; Giles and Willow are leaving this afternoon to go to England to find some more Slayers. I have decided to open a Slayer’s training building,"

Angel smiled lightly turning his gaze to her. "That's great, where?"

She leaned in inches from his lips, he could feel her breath on him and he could hear her heart racing.

"Here, I hope," She kissed him softly. "If everything goes okay," she looked at him with loving eyes and pulled him into a hug.

"I will leave you alone. Could we see each other later?" she asked softly.

A huge smile crossed his lips and he squeezed her hand, "Definitely. Meet me here at five."

"Okay, I am going to go shopping then with Willow and Dawn." He reached into his pocket grabbing the cell phone and his wallet.

"Here, call if you need anything and here, have fun," He handed them to her and she stared at him weirdly.

"A credit card?" she questioned, her green eyes sparkling in the sunlight.

"Yes, spend lots. I'll see you at five." He kissed her cheek leading her to the door, "Be careful it's not Sunneydale. It's LA, bigger and a lot more weirdoes."

"You know me, always am, I am from here remember?" she left the room.

Fred, Gunn, Wesley watched her leave.

"She looked very happy, what's going on?" Angel looked at Fred and a huge grin crossed his face., "She is staying for a while."

"Ooh, good," She said giving him a small smile and going back to her book she was reading.

***

From a distance a woman watched them silently, a evil grin forming her lips, glancing at her watch she took the last gulp of her coffee, wiping her mouth and throwing the container in the trash can. There was much she needed to do, but first she needed to see the senior partners. They would be very happy to find out that the slayer would be staying. Slipping her sunglasses on she turned left and headed outside

Chapter 2: “Welcome back old friend.”

Afternoon:

Angel whistled as he walked down the hall toward Fred’s room, it was a great day, a beautiful day. The sun was shining, work was good and she was there, his lover was there, how could he not be happy!

Fred looked up and smiled, "Wow, good mood, I wonder who did that too you?" She chirped and Angel smiled kissing her forehead

"Something like that."

"Angel, you need to drop this off before you leave okay?" Harmony said entering the room and handing him a large yellow envelope.

"Where does it go?"

She laughed teasingly, "You are old, aren't you? The mailbox." Fred giggled as Harmony shook her head at the older vampire and left the room.

"I'll take it. Don't you need to get ready?" Fred asked taking the envelope out of his hand.

He looked at his watch; it was four fifteen in the afternoon. “Oh yes, I have to meet Buffy at five o’clock downstairs, thanks Fred.” He rushed out, heading into his bedroom. He showered quickly and then grabbed his favourite red silk shirt and black slacks.

***

It was four thirty and Buffy was beginning to get frantic. They were still out shopping, waiting for Dawn's purchase. Willow looked at her best friend giving her a reassuring look.

"We will be there, don't worry and at least you don't have to get ready. The red head pointed to Buffy who had gotten a manicure and facial, her hair done and a new red silk dress that was just above her knees and red high heels to go with it.

"Ready. Let’s go!" Dawn said grabbing Buffy's hand and pulling her across the street to a red truck Willow had purchased, with the council’s money, for them while they were in LA.

***

It was five o’clock and Angel sat in the lounge staring at the door. People rushed franticly throughout the lobby and the loud annoying ringing of telephones was starting to aggravate him. He wondered if maybe she had changed her mind. The elevator dinged, he looked up instantly, and an old man walked out. Disappointed he sighed loudly, laying his head on the back of the couch.

"Somebody looks tired." He heard her voice say and he sat up straight. She looked so beautiful in her red dress.

"Ooh we match too, good thinking!" She pointed her finger at his shirt. He laughed and he slipped his hand into hers.

"You look stunning,"

She smiled shyly lowering her eyes. "You too.”

They gazed at each other as they walked toward the elevator. Never once taking their eyes off one another, they walked right into the elevator and waited for the doors to close.

"Wait…Angel this came today. It’s marked as urgent.” Harmony said, handing him the manila envelope. Fred, Gunn, and Wesley looked at them waiting to find out what the envelope was about.

Angel opened it quickly, impatient to get out of the office with Buffy. A pendant slipped out into his hand and he looked at it curiously.

All of a sudden a cold wind began to whip around the office, shrieking loudly, whisking the paper into the air and knocking everything off the shelves. It started to get stronger, and everyone dove under their desks for cover.

The wind gathered in the center of the room creating a small twister. What looked like a human being began to form in the tornado, flashing in and out of sight before everything, as quickly as it started, went quiet and the person fell to the floor with a thud.

Buffy was first to her feet and she rushed over to the form on the floor. "Oh my god," she exclaimed, "Spike!"

Buffy looked back towards Angel, who was midway through crawling out from behind a large potted plant. He froze.

"Spike? Who's Spike?" Fred asked.

Angel growled looking at the confused blond. "He’s…Spike." Angel snapped, making them all jump except Buffy.

Spike stared at the group, then to Angel, then back to Buffy.

"Buffy!" he screamed, throwing his arms around her and crushing her to his chest. "Oh, Buffy."

“Oh my god…Spike but…how?” Buffy stumbled backwards bumping into Gunn. Angel stared at his childe. Spike spun around looking at everyone, he stopped at Angel and screamed.

"YOU…this is your fault!" he shouted, growling loudly and running toward Angel. He threw back his fist and punched him hard before jumping onto his back. Within seconds, they were both on the floor, rolling over, and arms flailing wildly.

Buffy rushed toward them and grabbed the first fist she could, which happened to be Angel’s. "Angel, get off him! Spike get up and come with me." she demanded, dragging Spike to his feet and pulling him out the door, still looking shell-shocked.

Fred looked at Wesley, then Gunn and then to Angel. "What was that? Who was that?"

"That was Spike, former enemy he became an ally shortly after I came here. In addition, well Spike and Buffy…"

Angel glared at Wesley, "Shut up, we have to figure what the hell just happened here. I could feel him, he was warm."

Wes stared at his friend in awe, "Human."

****

Buffy laid Spike down on Angel’s bed and covered him with a blanket she rubbed his head gently.

"It's okay Spike. We’ll get you better and we’ll find out what happened."

Spike looked up at her, pain and sadness in his eyes, "Are you and Angel?"

Buffy stood kissing his forehead, "Sleep, you need rest."

She left the room and a moan escaped her lips, "God, why did this happen?"

****

Angel, Fred and Lorne sat at the table researching the medallion. Buffy leaned against the door. Angel noticed her staring intensely at him. She averted her eyes looking toward the group.

"Guess this means dinner, who wants it? I’ll go."

"Chinese." they all screamed. She smiled and turned her gaze to him.

"Want to join?"

“I’d love to.” He whispered, reaching for his jacket and following her to the door.

Her mossy eyes fell on his and a sad look crossed her features. “ I’m sorry.” She whispered.

Chapter 3 “ A strange encounter”

It was dark, he couldn’t see. The room was black. Where was he? Why couldn’t he see? He lifted himself off the cold ground and stood up. He grew angry at the fact that his vampire vision wasn‘t working, “Hello?” He ran his fingers through his hair, “Where the bloody hell am I?”A loud shuffle of feet running past him started him and he backed away bumping into a cement wall.

“I will find you ,we will be one again!” The woman’s voice whispered in his ear. Spike trembled at the familiar voice. ‘Could his lover be alive?’ Flashes of red hot flames appeared in front of him and he could feel the heat of the amulet.

Spike awoke suddenly gasping for air, his eyes searched around the room. Where the hell was he? Standing up quickly his gaze fell on the sun shining through the window. The vampire jumped back abruptly moving away from the sun’s rays. A confused look crossed his face as his heart began to thump, his left hand instantly reached for his forehead. His skin was warm, he was alive. A large smiled formed his lips and he opened the door and went searching for answers.

***

They walked in silence in sync with each other. Buffy stared at the busy streets then looked up at him, she stopped, making him trip over her.

"Buffy, what is it?" Her blank look scared Angel and he pulled her toward him, his arms wrapping around her tightly.

"Let's get out of here, run off, and forget about everyone." she whispered, averting his gaze she glanced toward the sky. Tears developed and her fingers wiped them away.
.

"I was expecting this, I’m so sorry." She raised herself up on her tippy toes and brushed her lips against his softly.

A large smile crossed his face and Buffy‘s heart jumped a beat. At that precise moment, she had realized that no one mattered more to her than him. She needed to tell him that, tell him she wanted to stay, stay with him forever.

"It is not you I am worried about love." He answered softly, “ I am a worried about Spike’s reappearance here, and what is it suppose to mean?”

The slayer agreed with him. Why had Spike come back, and human? What did that mean for all of them? What was to come?

They headed toward the door to the small restaurant, a loud bang startled the two of them and they turned instantly, their bodies positioned in attack mode. A man in a blue velvet cloak jumped out from around the corner, his head was down and he started chanting loudly.

"Behold! You warrior, are coming with me.” His arm slipped quickly around Buffy’s waist.

Angel tried to move in but he couldn’t. His legs, his body, it was like he was frozen. He watched the mystery man pull Buffy into his arms. They wisped around fast, garbage and dirt spun around them. The slayer screamed Angel’s name but nothing came out. Her body fought aggressively with the hooded man, seconds later she passed out.

"Buffy, No, Buffy!" Angel screamed as she disappeared into thin air. He looked around, seeing no one.

What had just happened? How come he couldn’t protect her? What was that thing? What did he want with Buffy? Could Spike’s reappearance have to do with all this? Growing worried he grabbed his cell phone dialing the office. It rang four times before Fred picked up.

"Wolfram and Hart, Winifred Burkle speaking."

"Fred, I need you to pick me up, now! I am at the Magic Dragon restaurant down the street, hurry." he growled, inhaling an unnecessary breath he hung up the phone. Scanning the area his gaze caught a yellow jewel lying on the highway. Intrigued, he picked it up and studied it curiously.

Fred hung up the phone and glanced to Gunn who was talking with Willow on the couch.

"People, we need to go, now.” She stuttered worriedly looking at her friend. “Wes drive." The group gave her a weird look and waited for her to explain more. “Come on, hurry we don't have time." Fred yelled, fear cracking through her voice.

****

It was dark, where was Angel? She could not feel him or remember what had happened. She peered in the dark and noticed a male standing in front of her.

"Our champion, the One, my child so precious."

Buffy stared at the male coming towards her. The male stepped in front of her and a his eyes filled with happiness. She glanced at the white robes and snorted silently.“ What century are you from? Didn’t you know that look is out of style, like since the year of Christ..”

"My sweet child you have done so well, you make us proud."

Buffy watched as he glanced to his left, a younger girl with long red hair entered the room and the lights flickered on. She glanced around the small room. White curtains and white couches surrounded the area. A small wooden door off to the right.

“I see you found her. Welcome Buffy, we are happy to finally meet you. My name is Gretchen. This is Manti.“ She pointed to the male in front of her. “ And this is Natalie.” She introduced.

A much older woman with the most beautiful blue eyes and curly blond hair appeared in front of her and Buffy blushed at her beauty.

"You Buffy have saved the world more than once. You have made us very proud."

"You are the Powers... the Powers that be?" Buffy questioned and they smiled nodding their heads.

Her body stiffened, her fists clenching beside her, her mouth twitched, anger rising within her. "You guys have a lot of nerve.” She snapped, her head shot towards Gretchen, “I have a bone to pick with you. How dare you! Why did you put me through so much pain?"

Natalie frowned and moved closer to her. Sadness filled Natalie’s eyes and her hand cupped Buffy’s cheek, "My child we…”

"No" she interrupted, "It was you wasn’t it? That brought him back after I killed him?"She stared at the man named Manti her eyes filled with rage, her hands going to her hips.

"Yes Buffy but you don't understand.” the woman moved in closer her eyes narrowed and a frown formed on her face. “We needed both of you in this fight, we still do."

"But…what…still do, I thought I was done?" She whispered her eyes gazing intensely at Manti.

They watched her as she paced back and forth. "My child, your time hasn't ended if you don't want it too." Reaching for Buffy's hand Gretchen gave her a sad look.

Buffy stared blankly; the male frowned and waved his hand showing Angel.

"You love him right?" He looked at her and she nodded “He needs you. Alone you are nothing. Together you are everything."

Buffy's eyes filled with liquid and she sat down on the stone in front of her. "It's complicated we haven't been together in a while we’re different people, we have different lives, his soul…" she trailed off and looked to the ground.

Gretchen lifted her head and stared at her hard. "We have a proposition for you, the curse, well it can never be permanent; it wasn't made to be fixed."

Buffy's heart sank and she started to cry lightly. "What so I have to become vampire, no! And….and when we are near each other it’s unbearable."

"My sweet child, you won't need to do anything, you'll be immortal until he becomes a human."

Buffy stared at her confused. "You mean I'll be with him eternally." They nodded, and watched her expression.

"But the curse, he could

The male put his finger on her lips. "No need for that now my child you’re bound to him for life, he can and could make love to you and he wouldn't lose his soul but first you need to retrieve something for that gift."

Buffy listened staring from one to the other. "You need to go to Ireland and get a Blue Theresoran. It is engraved with a scorpion and is very powerful. The gypsy that cursed him made it. If you bring that back and bind your blood and soul it will happen."

"So do you except?" Natalie picked up a mystical flower that appeared in front of her and handed it to Buffy. “Gason, Gason." She twirled around in a circle fast. "Do you accept, Buffy?"

Buffy nodded and looked up at her. “Yes." she firmly said.

They all chanted in a language unknown to Buffy and in a way she was afraid, what was she getting herself into.

"When given the Theresoran and when the ritual is finished, these two soul mates are bound for eternity and the chosen one a higher being

****

Fred, Gunn and Willow showed up running towards him.

"Angel what's wrong? Where’s Buffy?" Willow asked staring at the vampire.

"I don't know Willow, she just…disappeared, I don't know,” he said shaking his head. Willow gasped.

"How did this…what happened…what did you say?" Willow asked curiously.

Angel swallowed, just as a huge wind blew wildly around them. After a few seconds the wind dissipated and he noticed something, or rather someone, on the sidewalk…Buffy?
He ran toward her at full speed.

"Buffy!"

Chapter 4: "Lies"

Angel grabbed on to Buffy squeezing her too tight. "Angel... I am fine Angel. Really." she smiled cupping his cheek. "We need to go home I need to talk to you alone."

Angel nodded and Buffy looked towards Willow letting her know she was all right. They all got into Angel’s convertible. Everyone was silent on the way back.

Willow watched her friend closely; she was interested to know where her friend had been. Realizing that Angel needed to be with her now, Willow left it alone. They entered the office awkwardly no one wanted to speak.

Dawn rushed toward Buffy. "Are you alright, what happened?"

"Dawnie, I’m alright. Really I am okay; I just need to talk to Angel alone, please." Glancing up at Angel, she hugged her sister quickly and slipped her hand in his.

“But…

“Please Dawn.” Buffy interrupted. “We’ll talk soon, I promise. There’s just something I need to talk to Angel about first.”

Dawn pulled away disappointment showing in her eyes. Giving her sister one last look she joined Willow on the sofa.

***

They entered his room; she sat down on his bed, patting the covers for him to join her. They sat in silence staring at each other.

"Angel, I wasn't hurt, I was, well I don't know where I was, but I met someone." She grabbed his hand entwining their fingers together. He waited for her to continue staring hard at their hands.

"I saw the Powers That Be."

His eyes widened and he swallowed hard, she started to shiver and he stood and picked up a sweater off the floor and handed it to her.

She blushed and a small grin formed on his lips. "Angel, they told me I am needed...that we are needed."

A crash downstairs rumbled the apartment and they looked at each other.

“What the hell was that?” Buffy muttered and ran quickly out of the room with Angel right behind her.

Reaching the lobby, they both skidded to a halt. "What happened, you guys? What's wrong?" Angel yelled, his body stiffening as his gaze fell on the young boy.

"Connor." Angel choked; he swallowed hard and looked towards Buffy then back to Connor.

"Hello Father!"

Buffy stared at the boy then back to Angel. "Father…Father?" Buffy stared at Angel, her face grew hot and her temperature started to rise. Everyone looked around at each other and then back to Buffy.

"How do you remember? I erased your memory gave you a normal life." Angel choked.

Connor laughed coming closer to him. "You really think I could forget you father or even Cordy. The reason why you did it, she never loved you and you couldn’t handle that."

Buffy stared at them strangely. "In love with Cordelia? What?"

Connor smirked, one so like his father’s demon then turned to her. "You must be Buffy, the Slayer, my father's great love, or was his great love, if you only knew."

Willow stood up and walked towards him. "I remember you," she said softly, "but why did I forget? A…and Cordelia! She was pregnant with your child!"

"Yes, yes I remember too." Wes said standing besides her.

Pain and rage was written all over Buffy’s face and she turned sharply running away from them and up the stairs to her room.

Connor laughed as Angel ran after her. "There are things to come and when they do you will wish you were… hmm, just wait." Laughing harshly, Connor disappeared into the night.

****

It had been one hour since Buffy rushed out of the room. She laid her head down, and a long suppressed breath escaped her lips as her eyes shut tightly. She wondered if the Powers that Be were real and if they were telling her the truth. Would she and Angel be together forever? Or, would they be destroyed?

Tears trickled down her cheeks and onto the white satin pillow as she remembered what the Powers said. Was their destiny waiting out there for her and Angel? Could they be soul mates forever?

It had always been so hard for them. Did they not deserve a chance like everyone else? Or were they just puppets for the higher beings to play with? She yawned; pulling the blankets over herself, she fell fast asleep.

***

It was a beautiful day. She looked around nobody was there. The smell of daisies and the salt water filled her senses, inhaling the soft aroma she sighed and sat down. Looking over by the bench she noticed a little girl.

"Hi, my name is Buffy, what's yours?"

The little girl looked up to Buffy and giggled, “My name is Ariel."

Buffy smiled and sat down beside the girl; a sign that said welcome to LA, year 2020 caught her eye. "Where are your parents?"

The girl glanced up at Buffy, tears forming in her eyes. “My mommy and daddy are gone, it's just evil here now."

Buffy gasped looking towards the little girl. "What do you mean Ariel, what happened?”

What sounded like it could be an earthquake rumbled through the slayer’s ears and the little girl growled and touched Buffy’s hand. The sky turned black and it started to rain. Lightening flashed above her and she glanced around. She became frightened and she jerked her arm away from the girl and ran, ran fast across the beach. She stopped abruptly catching a glimpse of Angel across the beach.

"Angel!” Her voice echoed across the ocean and she stumbled falling to the ground. She spat the dirt out of her mouth and got up. “Angel!”

Angel grinned seductively at her; his deep dark eyes gleamed with happiness. "Buff, good to see you.”

His grin faded and his fangs appeared, snapping his head towards her he reached around her snatching a boy running across the street.

This wasn’t Angel in front of her; it was Angelus, but why? How? He snickered, then sank his teeth in the boy’s neck and drank slowly.

No, no! This couldn’t be happening. Where was she? The slayer’s eyes grew wide and a sigh of relief washed over her.

"Xander, oh, god, what has happened? What went wrong?"

"Like you don't know Buff, You're the one who created this world for us.” He laughed and grabbed her. "Want to have some fun?"

Buffy gasped then kicked him in the balls. She ran toward the street when she noticed herself floating and glowing. Her eyes were yellow and she was laughing loudly. Her other self noticed her and smiled.

"It’s not that bad. It is wonderful. Angel should have turned me sooner. We should not have gotten that close you know. We should have gone to Ireland but…oh well this is more fun." She floated around Buffy and snatched a woman up. After snapping her neck, she fed from her, sucking her blood.

Buffy couldn’t believe what she was seeing. Was that blood she tasted in her mouth? Lifting her hand to her mouth she wiped the blood from her mouth. “Oh my god.”

Buffy awoke gasping for air and sweating heavily. She let out a sigh of relief when she realized it was a dream. She knew that Dawn was sitting besides her, watching over her, and she turned giving her a blank look.

"Hey Dawnie, You've been up here the whole time? What happened?"

Dawn looked at her sadly. "You don't remember? Connor and Angel?”

Buffy sighed laying her head on Dawns lap. "Yes. I meant about me."

Dawn's lips shaped into an ‘O’ and she lay down beside her sister, her fingers combing through her hair.

“I’m sorry Buffy. Is there anything I can do for you?” Dawn whispered wrapping her arms tightly around her.

There was a small knock at the door and Angel’s tired voice seeped through the crack. “Buffy?”

Dawn peered down at her sister, questioningly raising her eyebrows.

"Let him in" Buffy sighed.

Dawn lifted herself off the bed and unlocked the door opening it for the vampire. "You hurt her again and I will stake you myself." She whispered, glaring angrily at Angel before leaving the room.

Buffy’s eyes averted his and she gazed off into the city. "I'm leaving LA."

Angel frowned and sat on the bed, his body moving closer to hers. "Buffy. It’s complicated, Connor…you were not a part of my life, I couldn’t just…"

"Stop it." she screamed, turning around and glaring angrily at him. "What was he talking about Angel? Is what he said true? Is he your son? Did you love Cordelia?” A pained look crossed her face and she turned away from him sharply, choking on the upcoming tears.

He could feel her heart breaking in a thousands pieces and he grabbed her roughly, hugging her from behind "No! Never baby. It was a confusing time, we grew apart and well Cordelia and I grew closer, I don't love her the way I love you but she is in my heart and yes Connor is mine and…Darla’s.” He whispered.

"I’m sorry about this. I was going to tell you. About Darla and Connor, I use to memorize what I was going to say to you, like how you would react? I did it all Buffy, a thousand times and each time I started to I couldn’t. How could I tell you that I had a child with my sire? Do you really think I wanted to see how much pain that would cause?” A soft sob escaped his lips. “ Do you know how many times I fantasized that he was ours? That he was your son! That’s all I ever wished for!”

She swallowed hard and rubbed her eyes. There were too many emotions coursing through right now and she couldn’t think. “Can I be alone for a bit please, I need some space.”

He stood up, afraid to leave her only, but understanding her need for space. “I don’t understand how he could remember but we need to find him, he’s alone and very dangerous.” He walked toward the door, stopping he turned around to face her and spoke quietly. “I’ll be in the study when you need me.”

Chapter 5: A Turn of Events

England.

It had been two days since Giles left LA, leaving Buffy and everyone behind. He hated that he didn’t stay or even say goodbye, but he couldn’t, because if he did he would never have left. England was now his home; the slayer didn’t need him anymore.

Walking closer to the building that was now the Watchers council, he sensed something unusual. He peered through the window, three new members sat around sipping coffee, grinning from ear to ear.

"Do you think the Slayer and the vampire will go to Ireland? If they did that would mean we will be able to destroy the branch and everyone associated with it, including them?"

The brown shorthaired man smiled, "Yes, we do hope so don't we."

The younger man smiled and lit a cigarette, lifting himself up he walked towards the small bar across the room. Giles stared at the watchers and crept closer.

"But we need someone that can do that?" The older man with grey hair said, coughing loudly.

"Already done, happening as we speak, soon, they will be dead." Greenvalt said, an evil grin crossing his features.

Giles gasped. "Dear lord, Buffy! I need to tell her." Turning sharply he ran fast towards his small Volkswagen and slipped inside. Turning the ignition on he sped towards his apartment.

Toply, the new head honcho of the Watchers Council, walked towards the window smoking his cigarette. “Do you think she will do it? Do you think she can destroy him?"

Greenvalt stared at his boss intensely. "Sure boss, she killed a man, broke out of jail and even killed the First with the help of Buffy and that vampire."

"But how do we know we can trust her?" Toply asked, flicking his cigarette out the window.

"Oh I'm sure she'll do fine. She has more anger than anyone I know and the proposition that I gave her would, I don't know, would change anyone’s mind.”

"Yeah, well you better be right, Greenvalt, or you'll be answering to our new boss and I'll let her kill you."

"How did you get her on the outside anyways Boss? She supposedly loves him". Greenvalt said handing a whiskey to Toply.

"Yeah, well I told her that she could have him, do whatever she wants with him. We just want Wolfram and Hart. Buffy needs to be destroyed. She is untamable and could change the world into what we don't want, so we need her. She’s evil. You know, she was the one who planned the whole rain of fire. It wasn't that Jasmine girl, it was her she just needed the push."

***

Angel paced in front of his bedroom impatiently. He wanted to talk to Buffy, but she had been quite angry and confused at everything that had happened. He wished that she had found out about Connor in a better way, but she didn’t. All he could hope for was that she would eventually forgive him.

Dawn watched Angel quietly and he noticed her, "Angel it will be okay just give her some time. She loves you. She's just confused."

"Thank you for being here, I'm so glad she has you." He said and pulled her into a hug, kissing her on the head softly.

A small smile played on her lips and she kissed his cheek. "Always Angel. I need to leave for a while. I have to go to my dad's. He needs to see me. Can you tell her where I went, please? I don't want to upset her right now."

"Are you okay? Is something wrong?” He questioned, his dark stare burning through her.

A small smile played on her lips and she squeezed his hand, "O…oh no, he just wants to see me. He has something to tell me. I just don't want to upset her, you know. She and Dad have never really got along."

"Yeah I know. Do you know how long?" The vampire asked moving closer to her and placing his hand on her shoulder.

"No, but I won’t be too long. I'll call you." A small smile crossed her lips and she hugged him. After kissing him goodbye on the cheek she reached for her bags and headed toward the stairs.

"Angel, please take care of her." She whispered silently. Dark eyes looked up and she was gone.

****

Spike headed down the many stairs and he stopped, taking a deep breath. His eyes fell on a young girl with brown hair and a green demon sitting at the table.

"Bloody hell, where am I?"

Seeing him, Fred smiled. "Oh Spike your awake. Are you okay? Did you sleep alright?"

Spike stared at the girl. She was very cute, a little nerdy but cute. "Where am I?"

Angel turned the corner, a tray of tea in his hand and some cookies that Willow made. Rage surged through him as he caught a glimpse of Spike.

"Spike!"

Angel’s demon appeared, a snarl formed across Spike’s face and Angel moved swiftly across the room, the tray of tea fell smashing to the ground as his hand wrapped tightly around Spike’s scrawny neck.

“What the fuck?" The blond ex vampire coughed, trying to escape Angel's grip.

Wes stepped in from around the couch, breaking the fight up. "He's human now remember, you can't hurt him."

Angel grunted and punched Spike hard sending him flying into the bookcase. Wes glared at Angel and the vampire shrugged his shoulders. “Doesn’t mean I can't hurt him."

"Are you alright? Are you hurt?" Fred asked kneeling down and making sure he wasn’t hurt.

Buffy rounded the corner, she screeched to halt as Angel punched Spike slamming him into the bookcase.

The slayer ran towards Spike, glaring at Angel, "Spike. Are you okay?"

Spike stared at them, ‘Where the hell was he? Why was Buffy here, with Angel? "Buffy? Where am I?"

Buffy looked at him sheepishly and pulled him up. "You’re alive. You came back to us.” Buffy paused and swung her icy glare at Angel, shaking her head at him in disapproval she lead Spike to the couch. “Fred could you please get Spike some water."

Angel watched the two of them and jealousy rose within him. Buffy noticed and headed toward him, she glared intensely at him. "Why did you do that? We need to talk." She snapped, reaching for his hand she lead him into his office.

"Angel I...I had a bad dream, a prophetic dream. When I disappeared earlier on, I saw the Powers, they told me that I needed to go to Ireland and get this dagger. I…it will bind your soul and mine. We will be together forever. Alone we are nothing, together we’re unstoppable."

Angel looked at her sadly. "Do you want too."

She smiled widely at him. "Of course. Do you?" He pulled her close kissing her fiercely; panting heavily she pulled away, her eyes averting his dark eyes.

"I have to go, I want you to come but you can't and Willow needs to stay here." She whispered.

Angel let go of her moving away and plopping himself down on the small chair beside his desk. “Who will go with you?"

She looked to the floor not meeting his gaze.

"Spike?” Hurt filled his voice and his eyes fell on hers, when she didn't answer, he grew angry and his arm swung out punching a hole through the wall. “Fuck, Go!”

He snarled and pushed passed her. Opening the door he turned, his eyes catching the tears forming in her eyes. "You better go ask him." He slammed the door making Buffy jump.

She left the room; wiping the last of the tears away she entered the lobby. Wes and Fred just finished telling Spike what they thought happened and why he was back.

"So you guys haven't figured out what brought me back and Human?" Spike asked.

Angel entered, he grumbled silently looking at them quickly then stomping up the stairs.

"I read a Prophecy it says a souled Vampire saves the world and redeems himself. He will turn human."

Buffy gasped at Wes's words. ‘Angel he could have been alive? “Oh god.” she whispered watching as the angry vampire stomped up the stairs into his bedroom.

"Buffy you alright luv?" Spike asked reaching for her small hand, a sad smile crossed her face and she pulled him in a hug.

"Spike, how are you? Are you okay?" The hurt in her voice did not go unnoticed and he lifted his hand brushing the small tear that fell from her mossy eyes.

****

Angel sat in the study staring towards the garden, everything was so peaceful and beautiful out there, he thought. Cordy would’ve liked it. God, how he missed Cordy, their long talks, her friendship. Remembering that it had been a while since he had heard from the hospital he reached for the phone and dialed the number.

****

"I am okay Luv, you?" He searched her eyes seeing pain, pain from his Sire.

“Spike we need to talk” she led him to his room; she sat down on the twin size bed and patted the spot beside her. “Come sit by me."

Spike hesitated for a moment and joined her on the bed his blue eyes searched hers and he could see that whatever it was she wanted to say wasn't going to be good.

"Thank you, for everything for saving us, sacrificing yourself, this must be weird being back, not knowing why and here at Angel’s."

Spike didn't say anything he just watched her intensely. Sighing loudly, she stood and ran her fingers through her hair. "I guess you're needed now, the powers aren't letting you die, you're a champion like us."

In the next room Angel felt her. He moved closer to the wall, his hearing sharpened and could hear her.

****

“Anything yet, not me." Fred asked closing the book she was researching and looked toward Wes and Lorne.

"Sorry baby dolls no luck. We should take a break, care for a drink?"

Wes sighed and slammed his book down a frown appearing across his face, "I think we all do, let's go."

****

"Do you love him still? Are you two together?" Spike asked softly, staring at her intensely.

Buffy swallowed and averted his intense stare. "Yes I do, I never stopped and we are not together physically but I need him, he needs me, the world needs us, I just am scared you know him leaving again and all." She moved closer to him but he backed away moving closer to the door, her small hand brushed his arm stopping him.

"I never lied to you or to him about us. I did and do love you.”

Angel could not believe it, what she said. His un-dead heart ached at her words and he groaned loudly. Opening the door he headed to the lobby, he snatched up the whiskey and blood and headed to his apartment.

Seeing the love in his eyes as he gazed at her, she moved her hand. "You’re my best friend you were there for me through a lot but Angel and I are soul mates, we are meant for each other. We are not whole unless we’re with each other. I love him Spike."

Spike stared at her, he always knew he could never hold a candle to Angel, but he thought that now that he was human maybe she could fall in love with him. He nodded sadly.

"I need to go, but can we talk later."

Spike smiled, "Always luv. Wouldn’t happen to have a cigarette would you?"

"Goodnight Spike"

“Goodnight luv."

****

Buffy entered the main apartment she could hear the shower running. She could feel his anger.

Angel stood under the shower and moaned as the hot water trickled down his body. He was so furious; he knew she lied to him. Spike was human he could go in the sunlight with her; he could do all the things that Angel couldn’t.

She entered the bathroom and shredded her clothes. He could feel her and smell her, he growled. His eyes turned yellow and he closed them, she always made him think of her. She intoxicated him.

Buffy stepped into the shower and grabbing the soap lathered her hands, leaning in she started lathering his chest, his fangs bared and his large hands grasped at her waist, pulling her closer, he opened his eyes and gazed down at her she was so beautiful, but why was she here.

"What happened to Spike?" He hissed, his dark eyes glaring at her angrily. He licked his lips as the soapsuds slithered down her perfect body. 'She was so hot and he could smell her arousal.'

"Why are you here, didn't I just hear you confess your love to Spike."

Buffy glared at him accusingly and moved away. Reaching for the shampoo she poured some in her hands and started to wash her hair. "You listened to my conversation. You were ease dropping."

He watched hungrily as the suds ran down her breasts then slid down to her core. "Yeah, I just…"

Buffy put her hand up stopping him; she quickly rinsed the shampoo from her hair then faced him again. "You have no right remember, Son and all." He looked at her sadly and she moved closer touching his face lightly.

"I guess your getting soft on spying."

He looked at her confused and a smile formed on her lips. "You are who I want, you are all I need.” Her hand grasped his cock and she gazed at him hungrily. "I love you Angel. He's my best friend I love him as a friend. You’re everything to me, I would die for you, not for him…”

Her nipples hardened and she leaned closer and licking his neck, moving lower, her mouth settled on a nipple and she nibbled softly.

Reaching down and picking up the soap, she smiled becoming shy at his hungry stare.

"I know we can't be together physically but that doesn't mean we can't be together. God Angel since I’ve been around you, do you know how alive I feel?"

The vampire looked at her knowingly, lifting her hand to his mouth, his lips pressed softly on her skin, "I know me too."

New Chapter

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 02:56:32 GMT

Title: A City no more

Author: Leanne

Feedback: Yes please email me at leapg2003@yahoo.ca

Summary: Set in episode "A girl in question. This fiction is a crossover of Btvs, Ats and Resident Evil. I know that there is probably a fiction out there with this nature, crossing over with Resident Evil, but I just had to write this, you do not need to watch the movie. Just keep in mind that the girl from it is Alice.

Rated: MA (Mature Adult)

Words: 5876

Disclaimers: I do not make any profit on these characters of Btvs, Ats, or Resident evil... they are not mine.

Dedication: This is dedicated to Marchelle. Sweetie, I miss you so much and I hope life is well. I just want you to know that I am always thinking of you. You are a wonderful friend and I love you dearly. I hope you enjoy this.

Characters: all characters of BTVs and ATS….Alice and the cast from Resident evil, will be featured in this story at some point.

Rating: R- eventually Mature Adult

Authors notes: I know that there is probably a fic out there with this nature crossing over with resident evil, but I just had to write this, I hope you all enjoy, please let me know if you like it, it helps me write. To Zo, who has been a real inspiration to me…thanks for the beta hun.

AN2: Thanks to Cathy for being a wonderful friend, I miss you hun and I hope all is well!

Thank you to everyone for the tremendous amount of wonderful feedback. Glad you all liked and hope you enjoy this chapter. Feedback is much appreciated.

Previous chapters here:

http://www.geocities.com/leatwolostsoulmates/RebornMain2.html

Chapter Two: An Unwanted Stranger

Well, everything seemed to be going perfect a minute ago, and now, I don’t know. The kissing, the groping, holding hands, it felt so real, so perfect. Could this just be all just one of his usual games? Pull me along, and then throw me away, again!

No, maybe it was just a misunderstanding. It had to be, right? But, the way he looked at her, the pain in his eyes. He cared for this girl.

Inhaling loudly, she realized she needed to find out about this girl. She wasn’t going to let him go… this time, so easily.

His loud obnoxious voice echoed through the dark eerie basement and she shut her eyes trying to block out his screeches and the strange noises out of her mind. Taking one, two, three large steps she scurried quickly through the long, dank hallway. Turning sharply to the left she quickly moved further away from him.

She paused and bent over grasping at her side, she ached, a pain so familiar to a knife being jabbed in her side, throbbed. Her feet hurt, the horrible pick of shoes she wore caused blisters to form on the bottom of her feet. Trying to ignore the aches and pains she found the exit and pushed open the double doors and headed into the dim lit store.

Why the hell had she been so stupid? How could she believe that something could happen between them, it had been years since they had seen each other or spoke for that matter? What did she really expect that would happen? That they would get back together and everything would be peachy. *Sighing* she turned down the isle with the coolers and found the cold drinks, opening the door she reached for a case of water.

“Buffy!”

The slayer ignored the vampire behind her and pulled out the bottled water and slammed the door, turning right she headed toward more supplies….food for someone she didn’t know and already didn’t like!

“Bloody hell Slayer, calm yourself.” Spike growled, his right arm reaching for her, his fingers grasped at her red tank top and he yanked her backwards, almost making her drop all the stuff in her hands.

She turned sharply, her green eyes piercing at him, angrily. “What do you want, Spike?”

The vampire sneered, his lips pressed together tightly and he pulled away, his hands slipped ever so quickly in his pockets and his body tensed at the hateful look she was giving him.

“Why you angry with me?” He whispered inching closer to her; he leaned in his cool breath grazing her pale skin. “It’s not me you should be angry with, I’m not the one caressing some young blonde.” He regretted his last words as he watched the tears start to form. Her eyes averted his and she bent down, placing the stuff on the floor and taking a seat on the laminate floor.

“I’m sorry, Spike, I just…I…I…God he makes me so angry.” She snapped and pulled out a bottle of water and opened it, taking a large drink. “Does he love me?” She bit her lip as the last words escaped her mouth and she watched Spike’s expression.

Ignoring her question he reached in his jacket pocket and pulled out a cigarette, lighting it quickly. Her green eyes watched him and for a moment, she wished everything had stayed the same, the way it was when they were in Sunnydale.

“Care for a swig?” He asked, pulling out the bottle of rum and handing it to her. She didn’t hesitate just grabbed the bottle out of his cold hands and unscrewed the top, taking a deep, long breath, she chugged it, ever so happily.

Spike watched amazed at how well she could take a drink and after about a minute he grabbed her arm, a little too hard, stopping her from drinking anymore. “Whoa Slayer,” He pulled it from her grasp and took a drink, letting the warm liquid trickle down his throat.

“God, I’ve missed you.” He whimpered, taking another shot before handing it back to Buffy.

****

A soft breeze slipped through the vacant lot, making her shiver, a soft melody rang through her ears and she jumped, startled at the small sound. Her blue eyes searched the empty city centre falling on the huge mall ahead of her. She squinted at the flames that scorched the buildings around her. She coughed as a large amount of heavy, grey smoke, filled her lungs. Stepping over the hundreds of dead bodies lying around she sprinted toward the mall, which seemed to be the only building left standing.

After minutes she stood frozen in front of the large glass doors. She could hear them, they were close, and it wouldn’t be long until the found her. Fear filled her and her head fell. ‘What was she going to do?’ She thought, tears streamed down her face, ‘How the fuck am I going to survive this, for all I know, I’m the only one who survived and…’ She paused; lifting her sleeve she wiped her wet face. “Get a hold of yourself, Alice, this isn’t helping.” She whispered. Her eyes scanned her surroundings, she need to find something to break the window with, her icy blue eyes stared straight ahead of her, into the small window, and she gasped as a figure came in view.

Backing away, Alice moved away from the door, worried that this young red head was a zombie, seeing a sharp rock beside her left foot; she bent down and picked it up.

The doors to the mall opened, “Come in, before they get you.” Willow whispered, moving closer to the blonde girl, and trying to reach for her.

Alice’s head snapped up, and a smile so much like an angels appeared across the woman's pale face.

“You’re human?” Alice stuttered, and moved closer to examine her.

Willow’s hand moved to her face and pushed her hair behind her ears and winced as her hand brushed across the open scar under her eye. “I should hope so.” Willow stated and moved away from the door into the building.

Alice hesitated for a moment and then followed Willow into the main lobby. Willow turned sharply, startling Alice.

“My names Willow!” The witch put out her hand and smiled slightly.

“Alice. Nice to meet you too,” Alice said, shaking her hand. “Is there anyone else, here?” She asked, her eyes searching the quiet lobby.

The pain that crossed Willow’s face told Alice that there wasn’t and she reached for Willow’s arm, “I’m sorry…I’m not sure what happened but I think I can figure it out. Do you know what has happened?”

Willow shook her head and sat down at the bench by the wishing fountain. “No, I…I’ve never seen so many Zombies before, it’s unnerving and very odd. I don’t know how this could have happened.”

‘Never seen so many Zombies before, but how could she have seen any, this was the first that she knew of’, “What do you mean? You have seen these creatures before, how? When?” Alice was curious now and sat beside Willow.

“I…I, it’s a long and weird story…I am not from here, actually, I am from a city called Sunnydale, I…I have seen many creatures in my life,” She paused and stood up, fixing her ragged sweater and flatting her hair with her hands. “Let’s move away from the door, go find something to eat, I’m hungry, I haven’t ate in awhile and I am sure you are too. I’ll try and explain everything that I know,” and with that she headed towards a food court.

Alice yawned, she was so exhausted and so hungry, lifting herself off the bench, and she followed Willow.

***

“I’ve missed you too, Spike. I’m so sorry for everything. I know you’re hurt, I wish I could take the pain away for you.” Her eyes filled with sadness and she scooted closer to him, her leg brushing against his. “How did you come back? Did you see the powers?”

Spike frowned and took another drink of the horrible rum. “Have you heard of Wolfram and Hart?” She nodded at his question and he took the last drag of his cigarette, “They brought me back, somehow I don’t know. They weren’t happy with Angel.” She gave him a weird look and he laughed. “He wasn’t taking their orders, didn’t like how they worked, so they thought bringing me back would keep him occupied, so they could fulfill the prophecy.”

“What prophecy?” She asked, snatching the bottle out of his hand and taking a large drink.

“The end of days.”

Oh, was all she could say and he hated, the look she was giving him

“There is something I need to tell you, luv.” He tore the sandwich from her frozen hands and ate the rest of it. After he was finished chewing he placed his hands over hers. “You’re freezing.” He whispered and rubbed his hands together to give her some circulation.

“What do you have to tell me, Spike? You’re scaring me,” The tension in her voice made Spike nervous and he reached for another cigarette.

“I…I found out that there could be a chance that I could become human…I…I just wanted to know if maybe, it does happen would there…uh, be any chance of…

She didn’t hesitate, didn’t think about anything for that matter, leaning in she grabbed his shoulders bringing him closer to her, she wetted her lips. “Human? How?” For some odd reason, the smell of his cologne and the ache in her panties and the look in his eyes, disregarded everything that had happened between them and her lips pressed against his cold, wet ones, and her tongue searched for his.

He didn’t think about the consequences just pulled her closer to him and lifting her small body on top of his, his hand raked down her small, slender body and he moaned, “I love you Buffy, I’ve never stopped.” Kissing her more ferociously his hand slipped under her shirt, his fingers brushing across her hard, firm breast. “I’d never hurt you.” His soft, raspy voice sent shivers down her spine and she took his mouth once more in hers and happily enjoyed the sensations he was giving her.

A loud bang and a growl seeped through the store and Buffy jumped up abruptly, pulling herself away from Spike, her crystal blue eyes fell on yellow ones.

“Wow, you’ve turned into quite the whore.” Angel moved swiftly across the room and instantly he was in front of her, his dark, angry eyes bored into her and she whimpered as his hand grasped at her waist pulling her to him.

“Would you like to explain to me lover, what you’re doing.” A loud snarl escaped his lips and Buffy shivered at the intensity of his glare. Swallowing hard, she wiggled underneath him, trying to free from his grasp. ‘Why is he acting so much like Angelus, what the hell was he doing in that room’ she thought.

Before she could speak, moaning and scratching at the front door caught all their attention and Spike ignoring Angel’s ego trip, pulled Buffy from his grasp.

“They are here, won’t be long until they find away in. We better get moving.”

Angel grunted and stormed towards the basement, turning around his eyes fell on the slayers. “You’re needed downstairs.”

The slayer nodded nervously and followed the angry vampire through the swinging door.

‘She didn’t know what was going to happen, but for some strange reason, the feeling she was getting wasn’t good.’

TBC

Fic:Blind 3/25

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 20:05:06 GMT

Title: Blind
Author: Leanne
Email: a_vampire_and_his_slayer@msn.com or leapg2003@yahoo.ca
Feedback: Of course, I’d love to know what you think
Timeline: Rewrite of Season Four BTVS. Crossover with Season 1 of ATS
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Dawn, Faith, Giles, Riley, Xander Joyce, Darla, Drucilla ,Spike, Tara, Angelus, Cordellia, Lilah , Wes, Gunn
Genres: Angst, Romance, Drama
Rating: Mature Adult
Warnings: Language, Violence, Explicit Sex, Character Death, Non-Consensual, Dark fic, Blood play
Disclaimer: B/A characters belong to Joss! Etc…
Pairings: B/A, B/R
Dedication: To Laura and Tiffany who have wanted me to update this for a long time now. Hope you like the revisions and thanks guys for loving this story!

Thanks to my wonderful beta, Zo!
I just revised this since it was one of my very first fics, please tell me what you think!

Chapter 3

They were quiet as they headed down Revello drive and into the city centre. The Slayer sighed loudly at Angel’s evil glare towards the younger vampire. She knew Angel was only doing it to protect her and because of the fact that his childe was evil when he left, but Spike wasn’t anymore, he had actually tried his hardest to work with the Slayer and the scoobies in fighting against the evil that was in town. She kind of felt sorry for him; he had been through a lot those last couple of months. Trying to contain the rage from rising in her lover she squeezed his hand and smiled at him.

Angel knew what she was doing and a part of him wanted to torture Spike for getting this close to his Slayer.

Spike stopped abruptly in front of a large run down shack. Buffy scrunched her nose as the smell of rotting flesh and dried blood filled her nostrils. Snapping her head towards her mate she gave him a questioning look and moved closer to the bleached blond vampire. She grabbed his arm, her nails digging into his leather duster.

“What are we doing here, Spike?” She asked curiously, looking him straight in the eye.

Spike didn’t respond, just headed up the rotting staircase and opened the door that was hanging on its hinges.

Angel knew exactly what kind of house this was. He growled. His face changed and his fangs gleamed in the moonlight as his eyes flashed yellow. With one swift move he had Spike against the wall, his hand wrapped around the smaller vampire’s throat.

“Spike, why did you bring us here, boy!“

The anger in his voice almost resembled Angelus’ and Spike quivered slightly in the older vampires grasp. For some reason he could feel his sire closer and he wondered how and why his former ally was coming out. Shrugging it off for a moment, he sneered at Angel and pushed him off roughly, making Angel trip over two bodies and into the wall across from him.

Buffy covered her mouth, her eyes widened at the scene in front of her. Her Slayer senses were going crazy…what was all this? Creeping towards the opening of the door, she hesitated for a moment before entering the building. Her mouth dropped open at the scene that unraveled before her. ‘What the hell was this? There were humans here, and vampires, and it wasn’t as if these vampires were killing for a feed. Scanning the small room her eyes caught a glimpse of two shadows in the corner. There was a vampire of medium build kneeling down over a small petite girl, his fangs were inching closer to her throat as his other hand slipped under her blouse. Buffy sniffed, the girl didn’t seem at all scared instead she actually seemed aroused by what this vampire was doing. ‘What the hell was going on? Why was this girl letting this creature touch her like that?

Angel knew exactly what she was thinking and brushed his hands off on his duster and slipped his hand in hers, pulling her closer to him. “It’s a vampire whore house.”

She glanced up at him not really understanding what he meant.

Spike snickered, “Bloody hell slayer, these humans get off on this…they enjoy it.” He glanced toward Angel, stepped over a pile of bodies and headed up the creaky stairs.

Angel growled at Spike pulling Buffy along with him. “Dammit Spike! Why the hell did you bring her here?” Buffy noticed the rage consuming Angel and she shivered at the bodies around her. A young handsome man looked up at her, his eyes were filled with guilt. The humans and vampires stopped what they were doing for a moment and watched the three head up the stairs.

The slayer couldn’t believe what she was seeing…it was disgusting…unnatural. The smell of the arousal and blood filled her senses and she swallowed the vomit that was forming in the back of her throat.

Reaching the top of the staircase, they headed through the dark hallway, and Buffy grew nervous. What was Spike going to show her? What or who could possibly be here that would involve her. Angel could tell she was scared and he pulled her closer, rubbing her back lightly with his right arm.

“What could you possibly want to show Buffy here, Spike?” Angel hissed, his eyes piercing towards the younger vampire.

Spike sneered then stopped, making both Buffy and Angel almost walk into to him. Spike grinned the most taunting smile Buffy had ever seen and her stomach knotted. Grabbing a piece of her shirt Spike opened the door and pulled her inside. She hesitated pulling way from Spike's grip, squinting into the dark room she moved slowly and nervously inside. She could hear voices…moans of ecstasy. Her hearing sharpened and the man’s voice was louder this time.

“Oh, yes…suck me harder…right there…hmm, just like that.”

"Oh my god." The slayer entered the room more and her mossy eyes fell on the man in front of her. She closed her eyes and opened them again, trying to shake the image she was seeing.

“Riley?”

Riley heard her and looked up, seeing his girlfriend staring at him, he swallowed hard. What the hell was she doing here? How did she find him? Realizing the ‘vampire whore’ was still on him, he pushed her off, standing up abruptly.

Angel heard her gasp and he stomped into the room bumping into Spike. His yellow eyes caught a glimpse of what Buffy was seeing and he almost fell over. It was Finn. Riley’s brown eyes looked up to Angel and back to Buffy and he ignored the evil smirk across the vampire’s face and pushed past Angel to get to Buffy.

"Buffy, I…It's not what it looks like." Riley stammered walking closer.

Her eyes turned dark, rage threatened to overwhelm her as she tried to hide the hurt and betrayal she was feeling. Tears formed in her eyes, but she wiped them away. She turned and ran from the room, tripping down the stairs and fleeing from the building.

Riley looked at Angel and the large vampire snarled, “ I should kill you now… boy!”

Angel growled angrily and settled for pushing Riley across the room instead of killing him, at least for now. He ran out of the room at full speed frantic to catch his tiny slayer. He could sense her, she wasn't far only a half a block. Sprinting across the street he entered the cemetery and found her instantly, sitting on the grass in front of a tombstone.

“Buffy?”

She glanced up at him, her eyes were red and her face was flushed, she tried to speak but all that came out was a gurgle. He reached for her, tracing his fingers lightly down her face.

”Shh…it’s okay, love…everything will be okay.”

The slayer’s greenish eyes glanced up to the full moon and she wiggled closer to him, leaning her head on his shoulder. “I.... I don't know what to say.” She whispered her gaze glancing down at her hands and then to him.

“I…I thought he was different, it felt normal.”

She stood and paced back and fourth in front of him, her hands clenched into fists and she screamed at the top of her lungs. She spun around, her leg flying in front of her; with one more scream she kicked the gravestone, breaking it to pieces.

“Buffy.” His voice was full of love and concern and she stopped, taking in a large deep breath.

***

“Angel darling, Where are you.”

Angel blinked twice, his eyes adjusting to the pitch-black darkness. What the hell, where was he?

A figure appeared out of the darkness and into the handsome vampire’s view, and he blinked again.

Darla smiled and reached for his face, tracing her fingers down his cheekbone.

Angel was confused and his face showed it. Darla smiled at him, an almost eerie smile, and he backed away slightly. “Darla…What the… Where is Buffy?”

Darla snarled showing her fangs then pushed him hard knocking him to the ground. Moving swiftly she stepped over him and crouched down sitting on top of him. She leaned in her lips brushing against his earlobe. “Does it always come to her, luv? Why? She doesn't need you like I do.“ His sire purred into his ear and bite down lightly on his earlobe, drawing a little bit of blood.

Buffy stared at Angel, he looked blankly passed her and she grew worried. Stepping closer to him she waved her hand in front of him trying to get his attention. “Angel, Angel!"

Angel blinked twice and his vision cleared. Buffy’s scared look startled him and he backed away stumbling to the ground.

“Where did she go?” He stuttered, lifting himself off the ground and scanning the cemetery.

Buffy watched him with worried eyes and crept closer placing her hand on his shoulder. “Who Angel, who did you see?”

The crackling of Darla’s estranged laugh echoed through his ears and Angel backed away from the slayer, turning into the direction of the outskirts of Sunnydale.

“This can’t be happening…I killed you! What the hell do you want from me? Go away! Just go away!” With two sharp leaps, Angel ran fast through the cemetery and away from Buffy heading quickly through the dark bushes.

The slayer became even more concerned and she screamed her lover’s name, following him through the eerie forest.

TBC….

The Golden Child 1/75 * Mature Adult*

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 18:32:25 GMT

Title: The Golden Child

Author: Leanne

Email: a_vampire_and_his_slayer@msn.com

My group:http://tv.groups.yahoo.com/group/Two_Lost_Souls_BuffyandAngelFanfiction/

My B/A Archive site: Reborn Desires:

Disclaimers: Joss and WB, etc, not mine, I wish

Dedication: To my wonderful group, you all rock!

Summary:When Buffy has a dream of Angelus destroying the world, she decides to take it into her own hands and leave Rome to go see Angel...What if her dream was right, will she be able to stop him!

Characters: BTVS/ATS

Rating: R-NC17

Feedback: Yes, Please, It helps me write better

Thanks to my beta, Zo and Amy (dark secrets) for helping me out and looking this over!Okay again, this is a fic I wrote in 2003 that never seen the light of day, I am revising it, so I thought I would post it!

Chapter One:

(The beginning of the end)

Angel sighed slamming the oversized book down he got up from his desk and moved into the adjacent room. He had not thought of the shanshu prophecy in a long time; then Spike came back from the dead and Wes had mentioned that having the two souled vampires around changed the prophecy. Realizing that now it wasn’t only him that was running for humanity, made him angry.

A loud growl escaped his lips and he tore off his black t-shirt and headed up the small staircase to his room. After reaching his room, he slipped off his socks and shoes and entered the bathroom. Stripping off the rest of his clothes he entered the shower. Leaning down he turned on the hot water and sighed at the warm spray of water trickling down his chest. An image of his soul mate flashed in his mind and he closed his eyes, trying to hold back the tears that were forming.

Why was Spike back? Were the powers playing a horrible trick on him? Reaching down he reached for the shampoo bottle and started to lather his hair. Were they trying to destroy him? Was this Wolfram and Hart’s plan all along? Was he just their decoy, while they planned for what they really wanted…Spike! His shook the horrible thought out of his mind and finished rinsing his hair. Grabbing the white towel off the counter, he slipped out of the shower and dried himself off. Moving into his bedroom, he searched for his black pajama pants and headed to the kitchen for a container of blood. After heating his blood, he headed back to his room and slipped in bed, his brown eyes stared off into the city and a frown appeared.

***

Buffy entered the huge law firm. Her eyes widened as she watched the many demons and humans scurry through the building. After finding no one at the reception desk, her hand grasped the arm of a tall, grey haired man who was walking by.

“Excuse me sir, could you tell me where Angel’s apartment is?”

The old man smiled at her, his greenish eyes searched her mossy eyes and a sad look crossed his features. “Everything will turn out for the best my lady, I promise you that.”

Buffy blinked and gave the old man a strange look, his arm lifted to her face and his scaly hands cupped her cheek.

“Turn right and follow the stairs to the top, his room is the only one up there. I’m sure you’ll feel him. Take care my child.” and with that he left her standing alone.

She shivered from the feeling he gave her, but ignored it as she fixed her shirt and followed his instructions. After the many stairs she found his door. Then stood there for ten minutes staring at it blankly. She didn’t move. What was she going to say? What would he say to her when he found her there? Taking in a deep breath she opened the door to his apartment.

It was dark and very cold inside; she shivered and put down her suitcase and jacket. Seeing a light on in the room to the left, she slipped off her shoes and followed the queasy feeling in her stomach.

****

She peeked through the small opening of the door and she saw the gorgeous sight of her ex lover’s sleeping form, she watched him, happiness filling her heart. Her lips curved into a huge smile and she gasped slightly at his beautiful form. Her greenish eyes caught his grumpy look she frowned and started to remove her shirt and pants.

Walking silently toward the large bed she pulled the red silk covers down away from his body. His hard muscular chest caught her eye and she swallowed hard. What she was doing there? She really was not sure why she was there or what she was doing, but in that moment her body relaxed a little and she took the plunge and slipped under the silk covers.

She sighed softly as the satin sheets rubbed against her half naked body, she shivered it had been way too long since she had felt such luxury. Turning her body over, her arm slipped around Angel’s waist and she leaned in her lips pressing softly against his forehead.

Angel’s lips curved into a small grin and he moaned. His eyes stayed closed and she wondered if he was dreaming of her. Her lips pressed softly against his temple this time and I love you escaped her lips.

Within seconds his eyes were open a confused look crossed his features, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes he blinked again, making sure he wasn’t dreaming.

“Buffy?”

***

Spike stood at Angel’s doorway, he had watched the beautiful goddess enter the building and up to his sire's room. He was curious as to why the slayer was in LA and in Angel’s bed. Last time he had heard, she was in Rome and didn’t want anything to do with Angel. He licked his lips as he caught a glimpse of her silky soft skin, peaking through the red sheets. Man, she was hot. His cock that was a second ago limp, erected at the sight of her. He moved closer trying to hear what she was saying.

"Hi!” She chirped, her head moved toward his neck and her tongue grazed softly across his cold skin. “Miss me?”

What the hell was going on? Was he hallucinating? His hand moved slowly toward her and he brushed his fingers along her arm. She’s real? She feels real. He thought and moved in closer. Her vanilla and strawberry perfume filled his senses and a low grumble slipped from his lips.

“Buffy?"

Her face lit up, her eyes sparkled under the florescent lights and she lay her head on his shoulder, trying to get as close as she could. She still didn’t really know why she was there. Only a few hours ago, she was at home, in Rome.

When the *First* was destroyed she had decided to reside in Rome. Willow, Xander, Dawn, and Faith followed her and they rebuilt the Watcher’s council. Giles had gone to England trying to recover as much as he could from the Watcher’s council to transfer it there, but also to see if anyone survived the bomb. They had been happy. Willow was head of the magic department. Dawn and Xander were training as Watchers, and Faith was the new slayer, and she, well, she was normal, living her life as a student at the University of Italy.

For some reason, she had decided that she was going to help out with the new evil in town. Her and Willow were checking out a new magic shop in the small town they had stopped at. Everything was great, Willow had found what she needed and they were just about to leave, when the sales clerk, an old woman, had said something to her that she couldn’t believe, not ever...

"Buffy?"

Angel’s raspy voice startled her out of her thoughts and a long suppressed breath seeped out of her mouth. "Angel, it’s me." Her hand reached toward his face and her small fingers caressed the lines of his cheekbone. She became aroused at the electricity shooting through her veins and she averted his eyes to the small picture of Angel and a baby boy on the nightstand.

He watched her silently; he was worried at her appearance in Los Angeles. He had talked to her two days ago and she was fine. He lifted his hand, brushing her bare shoulder with his fingertips.

“I missed you, I needed to see you.” She moved in, her body aching for the closeness.

"What's wrong? What happened?" She relaxed at the concern in his voice and he brushed her long blonde hair away from her face.

"I…I, nothing, I just kind of had a bad dream, needed to see you, that's all." She moaned and he wrapped his arms around her pulling her into him, rubbing her back lightly.

"What was it about, love?"

She shivered and tears formed her eyes. She looked at him sadly and laid her head in the crook of his neck. She whimpered kissing his neck softly.

"It felt so real, Angel, so fucking real," she sobbed, her body shaking franticly.

Angel held her tight putting his head into her hair he kissed her rocking her gently.

"It's alright beloved you’re okay now, you’re safe with me." He said soothingly.

She stared at him blankly.

"I don't know about that." Her voice was full of fear and he swallowed hard, his brown eyes watched her intensely.

"They killed you, it was so real Angel, and it felt so real, I watched it happen.”

He looked toward the ceiling and then back to her. "Who, what?"

"I don't know who, it didn't show me, but someone here, and I saw Spike." She rubbed her forehead, “Which means I shouldn't think it is true, because Spike’s died."

Angel grunted pulling himself up so he was sitting. "Actually it's true, he's here Buffy. He showed up a while ago. He's a ghost and that necklace is his connection." Angel waited for her to freak and she opened her mouth but caught something in the corner of her eye.

"Spike?"

"Hello love." Spike smiled and wandered over, standing beside her.

Angel growled and hugged her tightly, making her gasp. He lessened his hold on her and glared at his childe.

"Spike, I umm didn't know, are you okay?" She pulled off the covers, slipped out of the bed, and stood. Instantly she reached out to touch his face; he smiled but did not move.

"Won’t work love, I’m not really all here, you know?"

She looked at him sadly. "I am sorry Spike for this, for what you had to do...Thank you."

He smiled and looked at his sire. He could see Angelus’ rage coming out; he snickered and touched her cheek. "It's alright, not bloody likely for me to be at peace, right? So they bring me back, a bloody ghost and I have to deal with him." Spike snarled and pointed to Angel.

Buffy looked at Angel and realized he was watching them closely. She sat down, looking at the ground. "Spike, could we talk later, I need to speak to Angel alone, please?"

Spike nodded and walked through the wall not saying anything.

"Why didn’t you tell me? We talked the other day."

He could see the anger rising in her and he sighed loudly. "I umm, I just didn't want to burden you."

"You didn't tell because you didn’t want me to worry? Fuck Angel, you didn't want me to come back because of him, because of us!" She growled and sat back down on the bed.

"Angel, I would have found out sooner or later and you can't keep him from me, we’re friends I care for him." She said her arms crossed aggressively around her waist, anger filling her hazel eyes.

"I think that it was a prophetic dream, there were things I dreamt of that I probably shouldn't see. Things that have already happened, what I dreamt, they have came true." She whispered.

Angel coughed and sat up more, waiting for her to continue.

"I dreamt about this witch, she told me that my mate needed me, that you were going to be destroyed, that your other half will become as one. She was not very certain what the half was; I am assuming Angelus, but if that is true then you will... "

He grabbed her hand pulling her toward him, "That won't happen love, I am safe, and you’re safe."

Her eyes filled with confusion and a small smile formed his dry lips. "My soul is safe, Willow and Lorne they fixed me, the last time Willow came to help us, when Angelus was out...And, well…We can make love.” He stuttered. His dark eyes searching her hazel ones.

She gasped and tears formed in her eyes. “Are you sure? Because the dream…”

"Yes, safe as houses." He whispered reaching for her he grabbed her waist and pressed his cold lips to her warm ones.

"No, it was real, that's why I came, we saw her, the witch in my dream, Willow and I, yesterday. She told me he will be free and the world will end, she said it has already started. I'm scared Angel, if you are cured then how will he get free, we need too find out more."

It was silent for ten minutes as Angel stood and dressed.

Grabbing Buffy’s hand, they left the apartment, heading to his office. As they walked to the lobby, Harmony followed behind.

"Angel, the gang, they went to find some demons, you need to go, they need help."

"Okay, what were they Harmony?" Angel asked and Buffy stared at her, wondering what the hell she was doing here.

" Mohra demons or something like that." Harmony answered, her eyes never left the small slayer’s form.

******Flashback*****

“I'm guessing that expression isn't because they were all out of fresh OJ at the deli. What happened? “

"Nothing happened. I just.." He sighed

"Where have you been?" She asked curiously

“I went to see the Oracles. I asked them to turn me back.”

“What? Why?”

"Because more then ever I know how much I love you"

“No. No, you didn't.”

“If I stay mortal one of us will wind up dead. Maybe both of us. You heard what Mohra said.”

“Mohra's gone. We killed him.”

“He said others would come.”

****end of Flashback*****

Angel stared at her and gasped for an unnecessary breath as the memories of the forgotten day flashed through his mind.

Buffy noticed and ran to him. "Angel, what is it?"

"Mohra demons, we need to go."

Buffy stared at him not moving. "What are they? What’s going on?”

Angel’s deep brown eyes looked at her sadly and he opened the cabinet reaching for his axe and a sword for Buffy. "The end of days is coming."

New yummy David pic

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 15:54:15 GMT

Well I have two new fanart, One of David and do I have to say YUMMY! God, that man is going to give me a heart attack he's so good looking. *sighs* The next one is of Sarah. I hope you all like let me know what you think of them.

Fic:Blind 1&2/25

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 21:34:33 GMT

Title: Blind
Author: Leanne
Email: a_vampire_and_his_slayer@msn.com or leapg2003@yahoo.ca
Feedback: Of course, I’d love to know what you think
Timeline: Rewrite of Season Four Btvs. Crossover with Season 1 of Ats
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Dawn, Faith, Giles, Riley, Xander Joyce, Darla, Drucilla ,Spike, Tara, Angelus, Cordellia, Lilah , Wes, Gunn
Genres: Angst, Romance, Drama
Rating: Mature Adult
Warnings: Language, Violence, Explicit Sex, Character Death, Non-Consensual, Dark fic, Bloodplay
Disclaimer: B/A characters belong to Joss! Etc…
Pairings: B/A, B/R
Dedication: To Laura and Tiffany who have wanted me to update this for a long time now. Hope you like the revisions and thanks guys for loving this story!

Thanks to my wonderful beta, Zo!

I just revised this since it was one of my very first fics, please tell me what you think! I only really added some more detailed things in some area’s and fixed the major spelling and grammar. Hope you all like.

Chapter one

Everything felt like it was fading like her life was falling apart. Being the slayer couldn’t help her now. Nothing could. She fidgeted awkwardly on her small bed and glanced toward the clock on her nightstand.

‘Had it already been almost four hours since she had seen Angel’ Her stomach knotted. How could she be thinking of him right now? Riley needed her and she needed to find him. The pained look on Riley’s face tore at her heart as she remembered his reaction when she told him about Forest, how Adam had killed him. It had been two hours since he left. His rage was unnoticed as his fled from her room.

Sorrow filled her hazel eyes and she stood, grabbing her jacket off the bed she left the room.

The dorm was loud and the students were rowdy with anticipation of the upcoming Christmas holiday, she cringed at the thought of it. She wasn’t ready for Christmas, especially with everything happening, her relationship with Riley, Angel, Adam, Her mother.

Her breath hitched as her mind shifted to her mother. She needed to make sure her mother was alright. After finding out about her mother’s headaches, she was now watchful over everything her mother did. It was like their roles had been reversed and Buffy was now the responsible one.

It was windy and chilly and Buffy wrapped her jacket around herself tighter and headed towards her mother’s place.

****

He knew he should not be there, that he should leave, but he could not, he needed to talk to her more. He wanted to apologize for hurting her. He turned down Revello drive and headed to the slayer’s home.

She smiled at the smell of fall. The aroma of frost on the way caught her attention and she realized that it had been a lot colder these past few years ever since…since Angel had left. A frown appeared across her features and her head lifted up, her glossy eyes caught a pile of cigarette butts and she scrunched her nose.

“Spike” She hissed, realizing the vampire had been there, earlier. Her head snapped up and she peered towards her mother’s home.

She was disappointed to see the lights off, it seemed like no one was home. She reached in her purse and dug for her keys. Stumbling up the stairs, she fell back and her body came into contact with another.

“Geez, couldn’t you…” Her eyes fell on deep brown ones and she immediately forgot what she was about to say.

"Buffy.” Her eyes grew big and his smile grew wider, his teeth showing slightly.

Her body became limp at the sound of his deep voice. She blinked a few times making sure it was really him. “Angel?”

She wetted her lips, ’Mmm, he looks so handsome in the moonlight.’ She thought, blushing slightly she unlocked the door.

“Mom, Dawn?" Her fingers searched for the light switch turning on the living room lamp, her body turned to his.

"I uh…I saw them leave about 20 minutes ago, talking about a movie and dinner."

“Oh”

Angel could hear the disappointment in her voice and he moved closer, “Are you okay?”

Giving him her puppy dog eyes she headed into the kitchen and turned on the kettle, "Tea?“

After taking a seat at the kitchen table he replied, “Sure."

She poured them two mugs and joined him at the table.

****

He wished he didn’t have to feel this way. Awkward, it was only Buffy, his soul mate his one true love. But he did, seeing her across from him brought back memories he needed to forget, them consummating their love, him turning human. Could he really forget something like that? Did he really want too? No, because no one could forget such beauty like hers.

"How’s Riley?" He whispered, he needed to stop thinking of her, it could never be and she needed to live a happy normal life.

Sighing, Buffy caught his attention and he moved his chair closer, his foot brushing hers.

"He’s a little upset."

"Buffy, I shouldn’t have come I’m sorry, I didn’t come here earlier to attack him. I just wanted to…"

"Angel its okay he’s mad but he’ll deal that’s not the problem, his friend died today. He’s pretty hurt."

Angel frowned and titled his head to look at her. "I’m sorry, I didn’t know."

Her lips curved into a smile and her fingers reached for his hand. "Can we go in the living room? It’s… it’s more comfortable there."

****

"I’m sorry for what I said to you." She said quietly. Angel looked deeply into her green eyes and watched the tears starting to form in them.

He moved closer placing his finger on her lips. "I know I shouldn’t have hit you. I’m so sorry Buffy."

She didn’t even have to think twice she moved in coming closer to him, inches from his lips. Her breathing increased and he froze. Her warm pink lips pressed against his cool ones and he pulled her closer, his mouth opening wider, his tongue searching for hers. They kissed heavily for a couple of minutes not wanting to let go; finally she pulled away panting heavily.

"I lied to you."

"What? What did you lie to me about?"

She moaned, leaning her head on his shoulder. "About Riley and me."

Confusion covered his features and her fingers brushed over his cheek and down his jaw line.

"I … I don’t love him," she said, seeing something out of the corner of her eye, she looked to the door where Riley stood.

"Riley!"

Chapter 2

Buffy looked from Riley to Angel and then back to Riley. "Oh god, Riley.”

She was freaking out. Riley was staring at her with so much rage that she swore that it wouldn’t be long before he and Angel started fighting. She had to figure out what she was going to do. She did not want Angel to leave but Riley was there and she did owe him an explanation.

"Buffy." Riley said sternly as he entered the room staring angrily at Angel and moving right beside Buffy wrapping his arm around her possessively.

"I'd better be going, thanks for the coffee Buffy." Angel said his deep brown eyes peered at her lovingly before turning and heading for the door. His eyes fell onto Riley’s form and a low growl escaped his lips. "Keep her safe.“ He turned once more to his ex lover and his brown eyes stopped at mossy ones.“ I‘ll call you later beloved.”

Buffy watched him leave and she wiggled herself free from Riley’s grasp turning to look at him. "Sit, I'll be back."

She rushed out the door and stepped outside, she found him sitting on her steps.

"Angel?” Her small voice startled him out of his thoughts and he shifted his head, their eyes locking.

"Don't worry Buffy I'll be fine, go back, talk to Riley, I’ll call you soon."

Tears formed in Buffy's eyes and she joined him on the stairs, leaning in closer to him she wrapped her arms tightly around him. A small grin formed on his lips and he hugged her back.

Placing a small kiss on her forehead, he pulled out of her embrace, she sobbed for what felt like an eternity, and Angel held her close rubbing her back. "I love you."

"I love you too Angel."

He didn’t care at that moment that her boyfriend was there, watching them and he pulled her closer to him, pressing his cool lips on hers. The kiss was pure, full of love and pain and his stomach knotted. ‘How could he leave her right now, did he really want too? Yes he needed too; she had things she needed to resolve.’ Brushing her wet matted hair from her eyes, he kissed her softly once more before walking away from her and into the night.

Buffy entered the house and Riley was sitting staring at his hands not looking up to her.

"He’s gone now, right? No more catching you two together." He asked getting up and walking towards the kitchen.

A frown crossed her features and she sighed loudly, "I’m sorry Riley, he just came to see how I was doing, he's gone now."

Riley’s angry glare searched her saddened eyes and she tried hard to hold the tears that were forming. "Are you alright, I haven't seen you in a while." She asked walking closer to him and grabbing his hand.

What sounded to be like a small whimper escaped his lips and he pulled away from her, his gaze averting to the door.

"I’m fine, I need to go."

He didn’t look at her he just grabbed his jacket angrily and slammed the front door. She watched him go. She never tried to stop him and she never said that she was sorry for what he walked in on. Why, because she wasn’t, she was happy Angel had showed up. But how could she let him walk away again when all she wanted him to do was stay, stay forever.

A small smile formed on her puckered lips. After everything calmed down and Adam was destroyed, she was going to have a long talk with Riley. One she should have had a long time ago.

***

It had been a couple of months now since Adam was destroyed. Her mom wasn’t well, they found something more in her head than what they bargained for. Her and Riley were not getting along and the new evil in town, Glory, wasn’t making anything easier.

She sighed sitting on the hospital chair Dawn sat next to her, sleeping peacefully. Rubbing her head gently she pulled a quarter out of her pocket and headed to the phone.

Dawn stirred and feeling the absence of her sister, her eyes frantically looked for her. Seeing Buffy standing by the phone, she sighed with relieve. Curious as to whom she was calling she crept slowly behind her.

Buffy fidgeted from foot to foot waiting for someone to answer, finally the answering machine picked up. “Hi, I…umm, my mom she's not any better, I decided to move back home. I'm sure you’re busy. I just needed too…I don't know, talk, but maybe later. If you get this please call me at my mom’s. I…I love you Angel." She hung up the phone and Dawn spun her around staring intensely at her.

"What are you doing Buffy?" Her sister asked angrily.

"Nothing I was trying to get a hold of someone."

Dawn stared angrily at her sister. "Riley is hurting cause you won't let him in and now I know why." She snapped, her hands going to her hips, an angry scowl crossing her features.

Buffy frowned and walked closer to her placing her hand on Dawn's shoulder. "Dawn it's not like that I...." Buffy sighed watching her sister's anger rise. Dawn ignored her and pushed passed Buffy glaring intensely at the new body standing in front of her.

"You shouldn't be here."

Angel smiled at her and pulled Dawn into his strong grasp hugging her. A smile formed on Buffy's lips and she walked closer to him.

"Angel?"

He gave her a half smile and pulled her into him, hugging both girls tightly, when a doctor came over and told them they could see Joyce.

Buffy looked at Angel, "I need to see her, wait right here." She said, almost afraid that she would come back to find him gone.

Angel smiled at her reassuringly and nodded.

It had been about an hour since Buffy went in to see Joyce and Dawn was still angry. She watched Angel as he sat peacefully on the chair outside of her mother’s room. She loved Angel, he had always been protective of her through the years, she always felt comforted by his presence but not now, now she didn’t want to be here any more, she just wanted to go and run away from everyone.

Angel looked away finally and opened a magazine, pretending he was interested in the new fashions. Seeing her chance Dawn stood up and quickly ran down and out of the corridor.

Buffy closed the door to her mother’s room and her eyes immediately fell on Angel. His nose was deep in a magazine and then he finally looked up at her smiling slightly.

"Buffy, how is she?" He asked, handing her a cup of coffee.

She smiled slightly, grabbed her coat and sat down in the chair next to him.

"Good, tired but good. Where's Dawn?" She asked searching the long hallway.

Angel shrugged and looked towards her and back to the hallway. The last time he had seen her, she was lying across all four chairs waiting for Buffy to come back she had given Angel a small smile before he had dug his nose in the very boring magazine. That’s all he could remember. “ Uh, she was here a second ago. Maybe she’s in the washroom?” He answered and slipped his hand in hers taking her to the reception desk.

They waited for almost a half an hour and there was still no sign of Dawn, finally the young male nurse explained that he had seen Dawn leave. Angel thanked the male and his eyes fell on Buffy’s, a small sigh escaped her lips and she hesitated for a second then grabbed his hand entwining his fingers with hers.

"Come with me. Stay with me tonight?" He looked at her with reservation then squeezed her hand following her out the door.

Buffy stopped instantly at the phone booth, tearing her grip from his large hands she dialled her home. Dawn answered and Buffy was relieved, telling her sister she would be home soon, she hung up and started off towards her home.

****

It was a cold night, the wind grew stronger blowing all around them making Buffy shiver. Angel noticed and pulled off his jacket placing it over her shoulders. They walked in silence towards her house.

Buffy smiled as the warmth of Angel’s jacket reminded her of memories of them; their first kiss, him giving her his jacket, her seventeenth birthday. Tears flooded her eyes and he squeezed her hand looking down at her.

"You okay love?"

She nodded leaning her head on his arm. As they got to her house Angel felt a familiar presence and his face changed, his fangs appearing, with one swift move he was in front of Buffy, his arm wrapped tightly around the male’s neck in front of him.

"Spike! What the hell are you doing here?" Angel growled, his other arm swung around punching Spike hard in the face. Spike flew across the lawn landing hard beside the tree.

Buffy ran over to Angel, pulling the larger vampire off the smaller one, standing in between them. "He’s good now, he has a chip, he can't hurt anyone.” She yelled pushing her angry lover away from Spike’s form.

Angel looked at her confused; she smiled then shrugged her shoulders. “Long story.”

She turned to Spike and stood over him, looking down at him angrily. "What do you want Spike?” The anger was evident on her face as she stood glaring at him with her hands on her hips.

The bleach blond glanced up at her then to Angel, standing up he threw the last off his cigarette away and wiped the dust off his long duster.

“There’s something you might want to see luv.”

Angel growled moving in closer and Spike laughed nervously as he reached into his pocket for another cigarette, taking it out he sparked it.

Ignoring Spike’s mocking stare Angel’s hand wrapped tightly around the younger vampire’s neck. “Don’t you ever call her luv!” Angel’s demon appeared and a low grumble escaped his lips.

Buffy watched and sighed loudly making them both look at her. “Come on, quit with the jealous act. What do you want Spike?"

Angel could hear the anger in her voice and the annoyed look in her eyes and he backed away giving Spike a chance to talk.

Spike took another drag of his smoke and a devious grin crossed his lips, his eyes narrowed toward his sire’s and he snorted, “Follow me slayer.” Spike spun around his black duster flapping in the wind, without saying anything else, he headed to town. Angel snarled loudly behind Spike and the younger vampire tensed, he could sense Angelus’ rage more than usual and that frightened him. Buffy sighed loudly but followed behind.

After only a few moments the slayer looked up at her mate, giving him a reassuring look. A half grin crossed his mouth and his arms tightened around her waist. ‘Spike wasn’t going to touch her, or call her luv ever again, he was going to make sure of that.’

TBC

waves

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 16:07:52 GMT

Well,hello again. It has been a long time since I have updated and I am so sorry.

Well for all of you that want to know how I am doing. I am great, I decided to get another job again, so...lol...I have two jobs. This one is a full time day job 10-6 during the week and only 12-4 on weekends. It's a beauty store,a wholesale company for Hairdressers and others who are licensed in the beauty industry.'It's pretty cool I get to buy all the products,The best part is these are professional products only Salons can sell them. *g* I get to try all the newest fads. *giggles* I love it. So that is why I haven't been around...I promise on my next days off I will be going through the journal. I hope everyone is well.

I just want to say that my heart goes out to all the people in New Orleans and I just want to say that my thoughts and prayers are with you all. Go check a site that fans of James Marsters made for New Orleans It's a Hurricane Relief Rally sponsored by Ebay. Hurricane Relief Fund.

Well I have redid Reborn Desires Archive layout again...There are new fics, art and affiliates and awesome sites to check out, so please go check it out and tag me, I'd love to know your opinion.

http://www.geocities.com/leatwolostsoulmates/

Take care everyone.

Love Lea

Updates

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 19:20:09 GMT

Hey everyone I have two new fanart that I made.

I also redid my fics and fanart site you can find all sorts of new things here.

Pure Innocence

Hope everyone on my flist is well.

*hugs*

I promise that tonight I will check all the friends pages since it's my day off and I have time.

Love Lea

Yay!

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 18:15:19 GMT

*Waves* Hey Flist hope everyone is well!

*Dances*

I am so excited one my most favorite sites of all times ai_jinmarai asked if they could host my newest fic: And Then There was you!

*squee* Thanks Karen for loving my fic, I am so honored to be up on your site!

*hugs*

New Fanart

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 02:33:50 GMT

Hey everyone. I made some new fanart thought I would share. Would love to know what you think!

Lost Souls Updates

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 18:53:56 GMT

For those of you who read Lost Souls. I am focusing all my energy on it for now. Trying to finish what I started. Any and all updates are here.

http://lostsoulslea.proboards51.com/

Reborn Desires Awards!

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 06:06:37 GMT

Hey everyone, winners of Reborn Desires Awards have been announced, Round Four is open, I need all nominees and Judges so please come nominate. Ooh plus I have a new layout, hope you all like.

Remember, that my sites are best viewed at 1074x768 internet explorer.

http://www.geocities.com/leatwolostsoulmates/RBAwardsEnter.html

Hope you all like!

Here are the winner's if you don't have time to go to the site.

1. Feel the heat(Best Angst Fic)

Winner
You can never tell what one will do for love by Christine

Runner up
A New World by Keith

2.I only have have eyes for you(Best Romance Fic)

Winner
Ignorance Is Bliss by Bre

Runner up
Forget me not by Strange Bint

3.Dark nights(Best Nc-17)

Winner
Please by Zo

Concessions by Gia

4. The Immortal Life (Best Future Fic)

Winner
Ceremony of Innocence by D.M Evans

Runner-up
Justified by Briony

5. Turn The page (Best Rewrite Fic)

Winner
The Day from hell by Christine

Runner-up
A Second Chance at Sanctuary by Sarah J

6. Yours for the taking (Best Fluff Fic)

Winner
The Return of the Cheeseman by Aaronlisa

Runner-up
I'm Ready Now by Bre

7. Baby Please (Best Tear jerker Fic)

Winner
Ignorance Is Bliss by Bre

Runner-up
Someone's Watching Over Me by Sarah J

8."That Slayer She's a pistol"(Best B/Aus Fic)

Winner
The Wicked Seduction of a Vampire Slayer by Claudia D. Christian

Runner-up
Salvaging The Emptiness by Rehatha

9. Waking up in the hellmouth(Best Buffy and Angel site)

Winner
Sinful

Runner-up
Walk through the fire

10. Sweet Surrender Best Buffy and Angel Fanart

Winner
Cookie Dough By Cathy

Runner up
Hello Lover by CJS Place

11. Perfect sorrow (Best Btvs/Ats Post chosen Fic) Can be any pairing except, A/C, B/S and so on..

Winner
Close your eyes by Akay

Runner-up
Pieces of Now by Strange Bint

12. Joyce... you wouldn't happen to have any of those lil marshmellows( Best Site webmistress/webmaster)

Winner
Revamped : Sara

Runner-up
Vampire Haven: Claudia6913

13: She's all that (Best Btvs site(..has everything to do with Buffy the Vampire Slayer)

Winner
Cathy's Fanfic Page

Runner-up
Walk through the fire

14. Stranger things have happened( Best Angel site)

Winner
Walk through the fire

Runner-up
Cathy's Fanfic Page

15. A Single Tear (Best Poem...Can have any Character)

Winner
The Light in the Dark by Akay

16. A Spectacular Vision(Best Icons)

Winner
Forever isn't long enough By Bre

Runner-up
Tormented Love by Sarah

17. Passionate Encounters(Best Video)

Not enough nominees

New Layout

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 19:55:43 GMT

Hey all, Another layout is up at Reborn Desires, I am very proud of this one, and I'd love to know what you think, so please tag me.

http://www.geocities.com/leatwolostsoulmates/RebornMain1.html

New Fic: And then there was you 1/3

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 20:01:48 GMT

Title: And then there was you.

Author: Leanne

Email: leapg2003@yahoo.ca

Feedback: Yes please, it helps me write better. It is my inspiration, without it, I can't go on!

Disclaimers: Joss and Co, Not mine, I wish it were because I would fix Joss’s stupid mistakes and B/A would be together.

Dedication: To all my fantastic wonderful readers if it wasn’t for you, I would never keep writing, Thank you to everyone for your encouragement and your wonderful reviews.

Rating: Rated R

Summary: My intake on Not fade away, a fluffy yet tense journey on two lost warriors

An: I'm not sure about the title, maybe it will grow on me, if someone thinks I should maybe change it, I'd love to know what you think

Thanks for the beta Kally

Chapter one:

The noise from the hundreds of passengers faded away as she walked off the 747 and down the narrow stairs.

The clouds moved quickly above her and her green eyes squinted at the bright yellow sun. Placing her sunglasses over her eyes, she headed towards the airport.

Her fingers pressed firmly against her temples, her head throbbed at the noisy airport. Moving stealthily, she passed the crowds of people and went toward the luggage pickup. After recovering three of her bags, she turned left, moving in the direction of the large restaurant. She found a booth at the back. Ordering a coffee from the server and taking a seat, she waited.

Her soulful eyes glanced at her watch; it had been only twenty minutes. She clenched her cup of coffee and drank it slowly. ‘I need at least two more cups of coffee’ she thought, and wiggled uncomfortably on the fake leather cushions.

She sat strong, she watched everyone around her with mossy eyes she studied them closely, ever since she had died; people and life had not been the same. Her face scrunched. Eventually everyone was going to die, and it was just a matter of time. Her gaze drifted to a young girl about three years old playing with her mother. Sadness crossed her features, the talk of the world ending never touched the people around her, and they just went on about their day not caring about anyone or anything just themselves.

Her Slayer senses went off and her head snapped toward the opening of the café. Her eyes widened, a small smile crossed her full lips. His dark mysterious eyes found her, and he took in her thin sundress, she blinked and her eyes fell to her sundress, her breasts had almost peeked through the sheer material showing everyone her cleavage and more. Slightly embarrassed, her fingers instantly pulled up her top.

He scurried through the crowd and Buffy was impressed at how easy it was for him to be around large crowds, she remembered when he had always hidden in the shadows, away from everyone, watching her.

Her stomach knotted as the familiar smell of Angel brushed past her and she glanced up fully. She frowned as she studied his face he looked so tired. The server brought Angel a coffee and he nodded shyly and sipped at his coffee, watching Buffy silently.

“I hope you still take it black.” Buffy stuttered as she gestured towards the coffee in front of him.

“It’s fine,” he sighed, “I wish you would have stayed away.” His tone was harsh but she didn’t flinch and that shocked him.

Her gaze shifted to her coffee, and her fingers moved over the rim. “I wanted to. You need all the help you can get a…and I owe you for coming when I needed help last year with the *First*. So, what’s the plan?”

For the first time in three years, he saw her, the one he met and loved and left, not the broken shell he had seen only a year ago. She was now a strong, independent woman, “I gave everyone the day off. I was just going home. Until I got your message,”

She wet her red lips and Angel noticed how easily she still could distract him. Maybe her being around was more dangerous than he thought.

Her fingers brushed through her silk blonde hair, and she asked, “How about we get some movies and some food- I’m famished- and go back to your house? You can fill me in.” She blushed at his huge smile and his hand moved over hers, his thumb brushing over the top of her hand.

“I’d love that.”

His voice almost a whisper echoed through her ears before her cell phone rang loudly beside her, interrupting them.

Angel listened as she talked, guessing it was probably Willow. He moved away from her to give her privacy, paid the cashier, and he waited out side.

She moved quickly through the restaurant and outside to Angel’s side. Her gaze shifted to the sky, it was only 5 pm, yet it was already quickly growing dark. The black rain clouds moved in, darkening the sky.

He glanced at Buffy, “My car is just around the corner. Are you cold?” He asked as he noticed her nipples hardening.

Seeing his hungry gaze scanning her body she blushed. “I’m okay.”

He led her to the left side of his car, unlocking the door and opening the door for her. She was nervous and she wished that it did not show but it did, even after so long, his touch, the look in his eyes made her more nervous then she wanted to admit. Her hands trembled and her legs felt like Jell-O. Suddenly she realized that she hadn’t hugged him. She turned around, her left hand grasping the door for support while her other arm draped around his shoulder.

His throat was scratchy and Angelus screamed within; the demon wanted out and Angel could feel it. He longed for her, they both longed for her. She was their soul mate.

“It’s really good to see you.” She breathed, pulling him into a hug. As his body touched hers a moan escaped her lips, the coolness of his touch, his strong sturdy hands holding her closer, made her senses go wild. The way he held her made her feel like she was the only one in the world. God, she had missed him.

He was tempted to kiss her, and his lips hurt from the distance between them. His large hand pressed firmly against her lower back and he pulled her closer, their bodies touching. "I'm glad to see you, Buffy." His chocolate coloured eyes softened. “It means a lot to me that you came.” His cool breath brushed over her ear and she shivered. He moved away from her, removing the temptation and walked around the car to the driver’s side. After giving her one last longing look, he slipped inside and started the ignition.

The streets were busy as usual and Angel gritted his teeth anxiously as he stopped at the third red light. His gaze fixed on the Slayer and he wondered what she was thinking about, her posture was stiff, her mossy eyes were almost a black colour. She was focused straight in front of her, and her hands were clasped tightly together. He could hear the rapid beat of her heart. A grin, one she was so familiar with, appeared, and she could feel his eyes on her. Her breathing increased at the awkwardness between them and her head titled to the side. Her greenish eyes fixed on his and her hand reached out towards his, her fingers entwining with his right hand.

“Angel?”

His head shot towards her and she almost choked on the flem that was forming in her throat. Squeezing his hand harder then she meant to, she spoke almost a whisper. “There‘s no where else I would rather be.”

Angel’s dead heart skipped a beat at her soft words as he turned left and pulled up to the large skyscraper.

****

She’s there now?” He asked, taking a cookie off the kitchen table and plopping down in the chair beside his friend.

“Yeah she got there about an hour ago. He had shown up when I called her. She said she would call if they found anything or needed help from us in any way.” Her crystal blue eyes peered at her best friend. Her hand grasped his and her fingers pinched at the skin on his hand. “Don’t worry, she’s safe.”

“I don’t know Will; she never really thought this through. They need us, I think we should go.”

“She knows what she’s doing; all we would do is piss her off. She needs to do this alone, this fight wasn’t meant for us.”

Xander turned sharply to the sound of Giles voice. Standing up, he moved closer to Giles and peered at the book he was holding.

“So why would you be looking at that then?” He asked gesturing to the scroll Willow had found on the war that was starting.

The ex-Watcher sighed and pulled off his glasses, cleaning them with the bottom of his shirt. “Ah, I believe we should be prepared in case we have to help them out.”

A frown crossed Xander’s face and he picked up the keys on the small wooden stand beside the door and opened it. “This is ridiculous I’m not going to wait here while they fight. They need us and I’m going.” With one last look at the red headed witch, he left the house and slammed the door behind him.

****

Buffy was exhausted after climbing the many stairs; even though she was the Slayer and nothing really could make her tired, she definitely was right now. Angel noticed the exhaustion covering her features and he glanced at her worriedly.

“You’re tired. Do you want me to carry you?”

She smirked, her eyes averting his intense glare. “I thought I was here to help and protect you.” She whispered her voice huskier then usual, and Angel groused. Opening the door at the top of the stairs, he led her inside.

The hallway was dark. There was barely any light except a faint patch of yellow at the end of the long hall. Buffy’s head turned and her tongue clicked against her teeth. “This reminds me of your old apartment in Sunnydale. I see you still like to keep to yourself.”

He laughed and her face lit up at the sound of it. It had been a long time since she had heard him laugh and it warmed her heart. Pulling the keys out of his pocket, they stopped at the end of the hall. He opened the door letting her inside.

“Please make yourself at home, I need to check in on someone and I will be right back. Will you be okay?”

His concern for her was genuine, her lips pressed together firmly, and she nodded. “I’ll be fine, hurry back.” Entering the apartment, she slipped off her shoes and flipped on the light switch beside her.

He waited until she was completely inside before he shut the door. He didn’t feel comfortable leaving her but there was something he needed to do first. Bringing her with him would only complicate things and right now, he knew she didn’t need that, they didn’t need that. He wanted this night to be perfect.

He knew nothing was perfect. Everything and everyone that he had touched at some point was either dead or almost dead. He needed to make sure that if this was the end, if this was his time to go, he was going to enjoy it, with the only woman he ever loved. They would finally have their chance, even if it was for only a moment.

***

Her eyes peered through the tainted glass and out at the City of Angels and she dazedly recognized the city. Buildings and stores that use to be there were now either torn down or destroyed. If her memory served her correctly, most businesses had to rebuild themselves after the rain of fire. She wished she had been here with Angel when that happened, but so much had been happening with her that she never even thought of Angel and how he was. That bothered her. For so long he was all that she could think about, whether she liked it or not. After she died, the only things on her mind were slaying and her dirty encounters with Spike.

Frowning at the thought of the blond vampire, she took a seat back on the couch and turned on the small TV. Pulling a small blanket off the back of the couch, she covered herself, laid her head down on the small cushion, and waited for Angel to return. Within seconds, she was fast asleep.

His stomach growled as he took the last step up to his apartment. His encounter with Connor had gone on longer then he’d thought it would and he hoped that Buffy was still there, waiting for him. He wanted her to meet Connor, but with everything happening he knew she would want answers, answers ‘that for him’ were hard to explain. Even after so long, he knew that she would be furious with him keeping such a huge secret away from her, and right then he couldn’t bare having her mad at him. He would tell her about Connor, soon, but not right then.

Opening the door to his large condominium, he threw his keys on the table by the door and slipped off his shoes. He could hear the TV loudly in the background and he turned the corner and placed the large pizza box on the table. Moving gracefully across the room, he opened the fridge and grabbed a container of blood.

After heating it, he reached for paper on the table. Guilt returned to him as he scanned his signature repeatedly. What was he thinking? How could he just sign his life away? How was he to know that the Shanshu prophecy wasn’t real? Maybe Wes was wrong and it was he who would get it after the End of Days. The demon he met that afternoon was very certain it was he who would regain humanity. That was why it was such a concern for them; they needed to know that he would be on their side, in the black circle. He tried his hardest to prove to them he was on their side, not showing any remorse or giving any hints that he really was there to trick them. He blinked away the falling tears and his eyes focused on the small cell phone ringing beside him. Lifting the phone up he checked the call display.

It was Spike. He had forgotten about the blonde vampire. Jealously arose within him as he realized, soon Buffy and his childe would see each other again. What would happen then? Would she leave his side instantly and join Spike? Would she hug Spike and kiss him? Would she tell Spike that she wanted him, loved him? The faint noise of her small snores roused him from his thoughts and he peered around the corner. Her silky blond hair covered her face, her body was curled inwards and her hands were under her head, holding her posture up a little. He smiled and entered the living room, grabbing another blanket that was hanging over the chair, he covered her gently.

The smell of her fruity shampoo filled his senses and a long suppressed sigh escaped his lips. His large hand reached for her head and his fingers wrapped around her thin strands, leaning down he pressed a soft kiss to her temple. Wishing that he could have more time with her he tore his hand from her head and moved slowly away from her.

She blinked and her gaze lifted to his. His face was blank. No emotion flickered through his red eyes and she grew worried. Moving slowly she sat up.

“Are you okay?” She was worried about him, where ever he’d been, who ever he’d seen, something had caused the pain in his dark eyes and she hated seeing him like that. Lifting herself up off the couch her small hand slipped in his and she pulled him next to her.

“Will you lay down with me?” She asked. Her mossy eyes watched him closely, waiting for him to answer. A small smile formed on his lips. She moved to let him lay down. Her hand grasped at the small cup of water in front of her. She drank it quickly and lay in front of him. Within seconds, his arm was around her and a heavy sigh escaped her lips.

They were silent. The only noise that was heard was the small clock on the wall, ticking every second. Her breathing hitched and her fingers trailed lightly down his arm. They stopped suddenly as she traced the outline of his ring, his claddaugh ring. She had forgotten about the ring.

Her stomach tightened at the memory of her seventeenth birthday. Their love had been so innocent; the only thing that had worried them back then was the absence of them not being together. Her toes curled and her head turned to him, her soulful eyes gazed at him. She cleared her throat and leaned closer so that her head rested against his chest. Without taking her eyes off him, she lifted their entangled hands and pressed her soft lips to his hand. Her tongue slipped gracefully around the small ring and she wiggled closer to him. His eyes never left hers, his soul cried for more contact as her soft, warm tongue licked the ring on his finger. A groan left his mouth before he could stop it, and she smiled in satisfaction.

Bowing her head, her hands moved down his chest to the end of his shirt, her fingers gripped at his silk black shirt and he gasped at the intensity of her watchful eye. Slipping the shirt slowly over his head, she moved away from him. He whimpered unintentionally and pulled her closer. Her eyes sparkled as the light of the lamp flickered slightly; she pulled him over so that his body covered the couch. Her leg swung around his waist and she sat on top of him.

She lowered her head and she ran her tongue along his chest, but her eyes stayed focused on his as her hand moved up to his face, her fingers tracing his jaw line. His fingers dug in her sides and his body tensed at her warm tongue lapping at his hard nipples. They should not be doing this. If they continued he would not be able to control himself and he could not let that happen. There had been too much time between them, and if it went any further, he didn’t think he would be able to stop. He wouldn’t want too.

She knew exactly what he was thinking and her head moved up so that her lips were inches from his. His cool breath trickled her neck and she shivered. “Let me take care of you.”

He didn’t move, his gaze was plastered on the breast that had fallen out of the top of her dress. With one quick move, her sweet, warm lips crushed against his cool ones and every worry he had left his mind. His arm tightened around her waist and his tongue searched for hers.

They kissed for long moments, enjoying the taste of each other. Their hands roamed each other’s bodies, exploring every curve, every mole. Since it had been so long since they had been together. They tried so hard to take it slow, but it wasn’t happening, soon their clothes were shred and their bodies pressed tightly together. The only barrier between them was their underwear, and that wasn’t doing much.

Before she could speak, Wolfram and Hart’s security alarm interrupted them and Angel scowled jumping up quickly with Buffy still wrapped around him. “Goddammit.” He yelled, his eyes fixated on her half-naked body. His quickly hardening member was attracting Buffy's attention with every inch it grew.

“I’m sorry, could we maybe finish this later?” He muttered and she laughed jumping out of his arms and standing in front of him.

“Well whoever it is has good timing.” She stated, picking her clothes off the floor and covering herself quickly.

He looked at her, confused, and she lifted herself up on her tiptoes and planted a small kiss on his already moist lips.

“We’ve got to get rid of this tension some how right? You know me, a good fight is always the way to go.”

His unnecessary breath caught in his throat and he pulled her closer, wrapping his arms around her waist and hugging her. “Thank you” He whispered and a half smile crossed her puffy pink lips and she pouted slightly.

“You’re welcome; let’s just kill who dares to bother us, so we can get back to where we were.”

He gave her a playful look and reached for his axe on the chair. Opening the door he said, “After you my lady.”

Buffy giggled softly and headed out the door. She definitely was going to kill whoever it was that disturbed them and after that, she would show him how much she had missed him.

Hopefully, they would have time, but time had never been on their side.

TBC

Help Needed

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 21:30:33 GMT

Hey all

I have a new fic and I am really excited about sending it out, and well my Beta is very busy so I was wondering if someone would like to take a look over it. I'd be very happy and I really want to send this out.

I just need someone who is good at grammar, spelling and plot holes, please reply if you like to take a look at it.

Thanks.

Love Lea